ISIKAWA TAKUBOKU

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MEIDI 42 NEN

1909


APRIL

TOKYO    

7TH WEDNESDAY

HONGO-KU MORIKAWA-TYO 1 BANTI,
SINSAKA 359 GO, GAIHEI-KAN-BESSO NITE.

    Hareta Sora ni susamajii Oto wo tatete, hagesii Nisi-kaze ga huki areta. Sangai no Mado to yû Mado wa Taema mo naku gata-gata naru, sono Sukima kara wa, haruka Sita kara tatinobotta Suna-hokori ga sara-sara to hukikomu: sono kuse Sora ni tirabatta siroi Kumo wa titto mo ugokanu. Gogo ni natte Kaze wa yô-yô otituita.
    Haru rasii Hikage ga Mado no Surigarasu wo atataka ni somete, Kaze sae nakuba Ase de mo nagare sô na Hi de atta. Itu mo kuru Kasihonya no Oyadi, Te-no-hira de Hana wo kosuriage nagara, "Hidoku huki masu nâ." to itte haitte kita. "Desuga, Kyô-dyû nya Tôkyô-dyû no Sakura ga nokorazu saki masu ze. Kaze ga attatte, anata, kono Tenki de gozai masu mono."
    "Tôtô Haru ni nattyatta nê!" to yo wa itta. Muron kono Kangai wa Oyadi ni wakarikko wa nai. "Eh! eh!" to Oyadi wa kotaeta: "Haru wa anata, watasidomo ni wa Kinmotu de gozai masu ne. Kasihon wa, moh, kara Dame de gasu: Hon nanka yomu yorya mata asonde aruita hô ga yô-gasu kara, Muri mo nai-ndesu ga, yonde kudasaru kata mo sizen to kô nagau bakari narimasunde ne."
    Kinô Sya kara Zensyaku sita Kane no nokori, 5 yen Sihei ga iti-mai Saihu no naka ni aru; Gozen-tyû wa sore bakkari Ki ni natte, Siyô ga nakatta. Kono Kimoti wa, heizei Kane no aru Hito ga kyû ni motanaku natta toki to onaji yô na Kigakari ka mo sirenu: dotira mo okasii koto da, onaji yô ni okasii ni wa tigai nai ga, sono Kô-hukô ni wa taisita Tigai ga aru.
    Siyô koto nasi ni, Rôma-ji no Hyô nado wo tukutte mita. Hyô no naka kara, toki-doki, Tugaru-no-Umi no kanata ni iru Haha ya Sai no koto ga ukande Yo no Kokoro wo kasumeta. "Haru ga kita, Si-gatu ni natta. Haru! Haru! Hana mo saku! Tôkyô e kite mô iti-nen da! ......Ga, Yo wa mada Yo no Kazoku wo yobiyosete yasinau Junbi ga dekinu!" Tika-goro, Hi ni nankwai to naku, Yo no kokoro no naka wo atira e yuki, kotira e yuki siteru Mondai wa kore da......
    Sonnara naze kono Nikki wo Rôma-ji de kaku koto ni sitaka? Naze da? Yo wa Sai wo aisiteru; aisiteru kara koso kono Nikki wo yomase taku nai no da. ――Sikasi kore wa Uso da! Aisiteru no mo Jijitu, yomase taku nai no mo Jijitu da ga, kono Hutatu wa kanarazu simo Kwankei site inai.
    Kanasii koto da!
Sapporo no Tatibana Tie-ko-san kara, Byôki ga naotte Sengetu 26 niti ni Taiin sita to yû Hagaki ga kita.
    Kyô wa Tonari no Heya e kite iru Kyôto Daigaku no Tenisu no Sensyu-ra no Saigo no Kessenbi da. Minna isamasiku dete itta.
    Hiru-mesi wo kutte itu mo no gotoku Densya de Sya ni deta. Dete, hiroi Hensyû-kyoku no Kata-sumi de Odiisan tati to issyo ni Kôsei wo yatte, Yûgata 5 ji-han goro, Dai-ippan ga Kôryô ni naru to kaeru: kore ga Yo no Seikwatu no tame no Nikkwa da.
    Kyô, Odiisan tati wa Sindyû no Hanasi wo sita. Nan to yû surudoi Irony darô! Mata, Asi ga hiete komaru Hanasi wo site, "Isikawa-kun wa, Tosiyori-domo ga nani wo yû yara to omô de syô ne." to, iyarasii, sukebei rasii Kao no Kimura diisan ga itta. "Ha, ha, ha......," to Yo wa waratta. Kore mo mata rippa na Irony da!
    Kaeri ni, sukosi Kaimono wo suru tame, Hongô no Tôri wo aruita. Daigaku Kônai no Sakura wa Kyô iti-niti ni hanbun hodo hiraite simatta. Yo-no-naka wa mô sukkari Haru da. Yukiki no Hito no muragatta Timata no Asi-oto wa nani to wa naku Kokoro wo ukitataseru. Doko kara kyû ni dete kita ka to ayasimareru bakari, utukusii Kimono wo kita utukusii Hito ga zoro-zoro to yuku. Haru da! sô Yo wa omotta. Sosite, Sai no koto, kaaii Kyô-ko no koto wo omoiukabeta. Sigatu made ni kitto yobiyoseru, sô Yo wa itte ita: sosite yobanakatta, ina, yobi kaneta. Ah! Yo no Bungaku wa Yo no Teki da, sosite Yo no Tetugaku wa Yo no midukara azakeru Ronri ni suginu! Yo no hossuru Mono wa takusan aru yô da: sikasi jissai wa hon no sukosi de wa aru maika? Kane da!
    Rinsitu no Sensyu-domo wa tô-tô Tôkyô gata ni maketa rasii. 8-ji-goro, Kindaiti-kun to tomo ni Tôri ni atarasiku tatta Kwatudô-syasin wo mi ni itta. Setumei wo suru Otoko wa idure mo madui. Sono uti ni hitori, Simodomai to yû Tyûgaku-jidai no Tijin ni nita Otoko ga atte, kiku ni taenai yô na Syare wo itte wa Kwankaku wo warasite iru no ga atta. Yo wa sono Otoko wo mi nagara, Tyûgaku iti-nen no toki Tukue wo narabeta koto no aru, sosite sono go Yo-ra no siranu Syakwai no Soko wo kugutte aruita rasii Miyanaga Sakiti-kun no koto wo omoi-dasite ita. Miyanaga ga aru Kwatudô-syasin no Setumei-si ni natta to yû yô na Uwasa wo kiite ita no de.
    10 ji-sugi, kaette kuru to, Rinsitu wa Ôsawagi da. Irô-kwai ni itte yopparatte kita Sensyu no hitori ga, Dentô wo tataki kowasi, Syôji no San wo otte abarete iru. Sono Rentyû no hitori naru Sakausi-kun ni Heya no Irikuti de atta. Kore wa Yo to Kôtô-Syôgakkô no toki no Dôkyûsei de, ima wa Kyôto Daigaku no Ri-kôkwa no Seito, 8 nen mo awanakatta Kyûyû da. Kindaiti-kun to san-nin Yo no Heya e haitte 1 ji goro made mo Kodomo rasii Hanasi wo site, kya, kya, to sawaida. Sono uti ni Rinsitu no Sawagi wa sizumatta. Haru no Yo――iti-niti no Tenki ni Manto no Hana no hiraita Hi no Yo wa huketa.
    Nesizumatta Miyako no naka ni hitori mezamete, odayaka na Haru no Yo no Iki wo kazoete iru to, san-dyô-han no semai Heya no naka no Yo no Seikwatu wa, ika-ni mo adiki naku tumaranaku kanzerareru. Kono semai Heya no naka ni, nani to mo sirenu Tukare ni tada hitori nemutte iru Sugata wa donna de arô. Ningen no Saigo no Hakken wa, Ningen sore jisin ga tittomo eraku nakatta to yû koto da!
    Yo wa, kono kedarui Huan to siite Kyômi wo motome yô to suru asahaka na Nozomi wo daite, kono semai Heya ni zuibun nagai koto――200 niti amari mo sugosite kita. Itu ni nareba......Ina!
    Makura no ue de "Turgenev Tanpen syû" wo yomu.


8TH THURSDAY

    Tabun Rinsitu no Isogasisa ni magirete wasureta no de arô, (wasurareru to yû no ga sude ni Budyoku da: ima no Yo no Kyôgû de wa sono Budyoku ga, mata, Tôzen na no da. Sô omotte Yo wa ika naru koto nimo waratte iru.) okite, Kao wo aratte kite kara, 2 jikan tatte mo Aasa-mesi no Zen wo motte konakatta.
    Yo wa kangaeta: Yo wa ima made konna baai ni wa, itu de mo damatte waratte ita, tui zo okotta koto wa nai. Sikasi kore wa, Yo no Seisitu ga Kwanyô na tame ka? osoraku sô de wa aru mai. Kamen da, sikarazuba, motto Zankoku na Kangae kara da. Yo wa kangaeta, sosite Te wo utte Dyotyû wo yonda.
    Sora wa odayaka ni hareta. Hanadoki no Timata wa nani to naku ukitatte iru. Kaze ga toki-doki Suna wo maite sozoro yuku Hito-bito no Hana-mi-goromo wo hirugaesita.
    Sya no kaeri, Kôgakusi no Hinosawa-kun to Densya de issyo ni natta. Tyaki-tyaki no Haikarakko da. Sono sitate orosi no Yôhuku-sugata to, Sodeguti no kireta Wataire wo kita Yo to narande Kosi wo kaketa toki wa, sunawati Yo no Kuti kara nani ka Hiniku na Kotoba no deneba naranu Toki de atta: "Dô desu, Hanami ni yuki masita ka?" "Iie, Hanami nanka suru Hima ga nain desu." "Sô desu ka. Sore wa Kekkô desu ne." to yo wa itta. Yo no itta koto wa sukoburu Heibon na koto da, tare de mo yû koto da. Sô da, sono Heibon na koto wo kono Heibon na Hito ni itta no ga, Yo wa rippa na Irony no tumori na no da. Muron Hinosawa-kun ni kono Imi no wakaru Kizukai wa nai: ikkô Heiki na monoda. Soko ga omosiroi no da.
    Yo-ra to mukai atte, hutari no Obâsan ga kosikakete ita. "Boku wa Tôkyô no Obâsan wa kirai desu ne." to Yo wa itta. "Naze de su?" "Miru to Kanji ga waruin de su. Dô mo Kimoti ga warui. Inaka no Obâsan no yô ni Obâsan rasii tokoro ga nai." Sono toki hitori no Obâsan wa Kuro-megane no naka kara Yo wo nirande ita. Atari no Hito tati mo Yo no hô wo tyûi site iru. Yo wa nani to naki Yukwai wo oboeta.
    "Sô de su ka." to Hinosawa-kun wa narubeku tiisai Koe de itta.
    "Mottomo, onaji Onna de mo, wakai no nara Tôkyô ni kagiri masu. Obâsan to kityâ minna ko-nikurasii Tura wo site masu kara nê."
    "Ha, ha, ha, ha."
    "Boku wa Kwatudô-syasin ga suki de su yo. Kimi wa?"
    "Mada waza-waza mi ni itta koto wa arimasen."
    "Omosiroi mon de su yo. Itte goran nasai. Nan de syô, kô, pah' to akaruku nattari, pah' to kuraku nattari surun de syô? Sore ga omosiroin de su."
    "Me ga waruku nari masu ne." to yû kono Yûjin no kawo ni wa, Kimari warui Tôwaku no Iro ga akiraka ni yomareta. Yo wa kasuka na Syôri wo kanzezu ni wa irarenakatta.
    "Ha, ha, ha!" to, kondo wa Yo ga waratta.
    Kimono no saketa no wo nuwô to omotte, Yoru 8 jigoro, Hari to Ito wo kai ni hitori dekaketa. Hongô no Tôri wa Haru no Nigiwai wo misete ita: itumo no Yomise no hoka ni, Ueki-ya ga takusan dete ita. Hito wa izure mo tanosi sô ni Kata wo sutte aruite ita. Yo wa Hari to Ito wo kawazu ni, 'yamero yamero' to yû Kokoro no Sakebi wo kiki nagara, tô-tô Saihu wo dasite kono Tyômen to Tabi to Sarumata to Makigami to, sore kara Sansiki-sumire no Hati wo hutatu to, 5 sen dutu de, katte kita. Yo wa naze Hituyô na mono wo kau toki ni made 'yamero' to yû Kokoro no Koe wo kikaneba naranu ka? 'Iti-mon-nasi ni naru zo.' to, sono Koe ga yû: 'Hakodate de wa komatteru zo.' to, sono Koe ga yû!
    Sumire no Hati no hitotu wo motte Kindaiti-un no Heya ni itta. "Kinô anata no Heya ni itta toki iwô iwô to omotte tô-tô ii kaneta koto ga arimasita." to Tomo wa itta. Omosiroi Hanasi ga kakute hajimatta no da.
    "Nan de su? ......Sâh, ikkô wakaranai!"
    Tomo wa ikutabi ka tameratta noti, yô-yô ii dasita. Sore wa kô da:――
    Kyôto no Daigaku-sei ga 10 nan nin, kono Gesyuku ni kite, 7 ban to 8 ban, sunawati Yo to Kindaiti-kun to no aida no Heya ni tomatta no wa, Kongetu no Tuitati no koto da. Dyotyû wa mina Ôsawagi site sono hô no Yô ni bakari Ki wo torarete ita. Naka ni mo Okiyo――5 nin no uti de wa iti-ban Bijin no Okiyo wa, tyôdo 3 gai-moti no Ban datta mon da kara, hotondo Asa kara Ban――Yonaka made mo kono wakai, Genki no aru Gakusei domo no naka ni bakari ita. Minna wa 'Okiyo-san, Okiyo-san.' to itte sawaida. Naka ni wa zuibun ikagawasii Kotoba ya, kusuguru yô na Kehai nado mo kikoeta. Yo wa sikasi, Dyotyû domo no kyodô ni tira-tira mieru Gyakutai ni wa Narekko ni natte iru no de, sitagatte karera no koto ni wa tasyô Mukwansin na Taido wo toreru yô ni natte ita kara, sore ni taisite kakubetu Huyukwai ni mo kanjite inakatta. Sikasi, Kindaiti-kun wa, sono Rinsitu no Mono-oto no kikoeru tabi, yû ni iwarenu Sitto no Jô ni karareta to yû.
    Sitto! Nan to yû Bimyô na Kotoba darô! Tomo wa sore wo osae kanete, hate wa Jibun-jisin wo asamasii Sitto bukai Otoko to omoi, Tuitati kara 4 kka made no Yasumi wo mattaku Huyukwai ni okutta to yû. Sosite, itu-ka no Hi ni Sansyôdô e dete, hoh' to Ansin site Iki wo tuki, Syô-sijin-kun (sono Henshûkyoku ni iru aware na Otoko.) no Ii-gusa de wa nai ga, Uti ni iru yori koko no hô ga ikura Ki ga nonbiri siteru darô to omotta. Sore kara yôyaku sukosi Heizei no Kimoti ni nari eta to no koto da.
    Okyaku to yû no wa Ni-gatu no sue ni kita Onna da. Nikukan-teki ni hutotte, Kessyoku ga yoku, Mayu ga koku, ya-ya Kaku batta Kao ni hutoi kikan Ki ga arawarete iru. Tosi wa hatati da to yû. Nan de mo, Saisyo kita toki Kindaiti-kun ni daibu sekkin si yô to sita rasii. Sore wo Otune――kore mo omosiroi Onna da. ――ga Muki ni natte samatageta rasii. Sosite, Okiyo wa kyû ni waga Tomo ni taisuru Taido wo aratameta rasii. Kore wa Tomo no yû tokoro de hobo sassuru koto ga dekiru. Tomo wa sono go, Okiyo ni taisite, tyôdo Jibun no Uti e tonde haitta Kotori ni nigerareta yô na kimoti de, taezu Me wo tukete ita rasii. Okiyo no umare-nagara no Tyôhatu-teki na, sono kuse doko ka Hito wo assuru yô na Taido wa, mata, Onna medurasii Tomo no Kokoro wo sore to naku Sihai site ita to mieru. Sosite Kindaiti-kun――Ima made Dyotyû ni Syûgi wo yaranakatta Kindaiti-kun wa, Sengetu no Misoka ni Okiyo hitori ni dake nanigasi ka no Kane wo kureta. Okiyo wa sore wo Sita e itte minna ni hanasita rasii. Akuru Hi kara Otune no Taido wa ippen sita to yû. Makoto ni Baka na, sosite awaremu beki hanasi da. Sosite kore koso sin ni Omosiroimi no aru koto da. Soko e motte kite Daigaku-sei ga yatte kita no da.
    Okiyo wa tuyoi Onna da! to hutari wa hanasita. 5 nin no uti, itiban hataraku no wa kono Okiyo da. Sono kawari Hudan ni wa, Yoru 10 ji ni sae nareba, Hito ni kawmawazu hitori nete simau sô da. Hataraki-buri ni wa tare hitori oyobu mono ga nai: sitagatte Okiyo wa itu sika Minna wo assite iru. Zuibun kikan Ki no, metta ni naku koto nado no nai Onna rasii. Sono Seikaku wa Kyôsya no Seikaku da.
    Ippô, Kindaiti-kun ga Sitto bukai, yowai Hito no koto wa mata arasowarenai. Hito no Seikaku ni Ni-men aru no wa utagô bekarazaru Jijitu da. Tomo wa Iti-men ni makoto ni otonasii, Hito no yoi, yasasii, Omoiyari no hukai Otoko da to tomo ni, Iti-men, Sitto bukai, yowai, tiisana Unubore no aru, memesii Otoko da.
    Sore wa, mâ, dô de mo yoi. Sono Gakusei domo wa Kyô minna tatte simatte, tatta hutari nokotta. Sono hutari wa Siti-ban to Hati-ban e, Kyonya, hitori dutu neta.
    Yo wa osoku made okite ita.
    Tyôdo 1 ji 20 pun goro da. Issin ni natte Pen wo ugokasite iru to, huto, Heya no Soto ni Sinobi-asi no oto to, sewasii Iki-dukai to wo kiita. Hate! sô omotte Yo wa Iki wo hisomete Kiki-mimi wo tateta.
    Soto no Iki-dukai wa, sin to sita. Yohuke no Kエuki ni Arasi no yô ni hagesiku kikoeta. Sibaraku wa aruku kehai ga nai. Heya-beya no Yôsu wo ukagatte iru rasii. Yo wa sikasi, hajime kara kore wo Nusubito nado to wa omowanakatta. ......! Tasika ni sô da!
    Tu to, ôkiku Simada wo itta Onna no Kage-bôsi ga Irikuti no Syôji ni azayaka ni ututta. Okiyo da!
    Tuyoi Onna mo Hito ni sinonde Hasigo wo agatte kita no de, sono Iki-dukai no hagesisa ni, ika ni Sinzô ga tuyoku Nami utteru ka ga wakaru. Kage-bôsi wa Rôka no Dentô no tame ni uturu no da.
    Rinsitu no Irikuti no Mawasi-do ga siduka ni aita. Onna wa naka ni haitte itta.
    "U――u," to kasuka na Koe! Nete iru otoko wo okosita rasii.
    Ma mo naku Onna wa, ittan simeta To wo, mata sukosi hosome ni akete, Yo no Heya no Yôsu wo ukagatteru rasikatta. Sosite sono mama mata Naka e itta. "U――u――u." to mata kikoeru. Kasuka na Hanasi-goe! Onna wa mata Irikuti made dete kite, To wo simete, ni-sanpo aruku Kehai ga sita to omô to, sorek-kiri nan no Oto mo sinaku natta.
    Tôku no Heya de 'kan' to 1 ji -han no tokei no Oto.
    Kasuka ni Niwatori no koe.
    Yo wa Iki ga tumaru Yô ni kanjita. Rinsitu de wa muron mô Yo mo neta mono to omotteru ni tigai nai. Mosi okiteru Kehai wo sasitara, hutari wa donna ni ka komarudarô. Koitu-a komatta. Soko de Yo wa naru take Oto no sinai yô ni, madu haori wo nugi, Tabi wo nugi, soro-soro tatiagatte mita ga, Toko no naka ni hairu ni wa daibu Konnan sita. To ni kaku 10 pun bakari mo kakatte, yatto Oto naku neru koto ga dekita. Sore demo mada nan to naku Iki gatumaru yô da. Jitu ni tonda Me ni atta mono da.
    Rinsitu kara wa, tôi tokoro ni Ssisi de mo iru yô ni, sono sewasii, atatakai, Hukisoku na Kokyû ga kasuka ni kikoeru. Mi mo Kokoro mo torokeru Tanosimi no Mas-saityû da.
    Sono Oto――Husigi na Oto wo kiki nagara, naze ka Yo wa sappari Kokoro wo ugokasanakatta. Yo wa hajime kara ii Syôsetu no Zairyô de mo mituketa yô na Ki ga site ita. "Ittai nan to yû Otoko darô? Kit-to Okiyo wo Te ni ire tai bakkari ni, waza-waza inokotta mono darô. Sore ni site mo, Okiyo no Yatu, zuibun Daitan na Onna da." Konna koto wo kangaeta. "Asu sassoku Kindaiti-kun ni sirase yô ka? Iya, siraseru no wa Zankoku da...... Iya, siraseru hô ga omosiroi......" 2 ji no Tokei ga natta.
    Ma mo naku, Yo wa nemutte simatta.


9TH FRIDAY

    Sakura wa ku-bu no Saki: atataka na, odayaka na, mattaku Haru rasii Hi de, Sora wa tôku Hanagumori ni kasunda.
    Ototoi kita toki wa nan to mo omowanakatta Tieko san no Hagaki wo mite iru to, naze ka tamaranai hodo koisiku natte kita. 'Hito no Tuma ni naranu mae ni, tatta iti-do de ii kara aitai!' Sô omotta.
    Tie-ko san! nan to ii Namae darô! Ano sitoyaka na, sosite karoyaka na, ika ni mo wakai Onna rasii Aruki-buri! Sawayaka na Koe! Hutari no Hanasi wo sita no wa tatta ni-do da. Iti-do wa Ôtake Kôtyô no Uti de, Yo ga Kaisyoku-negai wo motte itta toki: iti-do wa Yatigasira no, ano Ebi-iro no Madokake no kakatta Mado no aru Heya de――sô da, Yo ga "Akogare" wo motte itta toki da. Dotira mo Hakodate de no koto da.
    Ah! Wakarete kara mô 20 ka-getu ni naru!
    Sakuya no koto wo Kindaiti-kun ni hanasite simatta. Muron sono tame ni Tomo no Kokoro ni okotta Teikiatu wa 1 niti ya 2 ka de kie mai. Kyô iti-niti nan da ka Genki ga nakatta. To itte, Tomo wa betu ni Okiyo ni Koi siteru wake de wa muron nai. Ga, Yo no yô ni kono koto wo omosirogari wa sinakatta no wa Jijitu da. Otoko wa Wakazono to yû Yatu na koto wa sugu sireta. Kare wa Yoru 9 ji goro ni natte tatte itta. Okiyo to no Wakare no Kotoba wa Kindaiti-kun to tomo ni kono Heya ni ite kiita. Sono moyô dewa, nan de mo Watanabe to yû Sei no Otoko to no Hariai kara, hitori nokotte Okiyo wo Te ni ireru kessin wo sita mono rasii. Otoko no tatta ato, Onna wa sugu Hana-uta wo utai nagara tati-hataraite ita.
    Sya de wa Kyô Dai-ippan ga hayaku sunde, 5 ji-goro ni kaette kita. Yoru, detakute tamaranu no wo muri ni osaete mita.
    Kaeri no Densya no Naka de, Kyonen no Haru wakareta mama ni awanu Kyô-ko ni, yoku nita Kodomo wo mita. Gomu-dama no Hue wo 'Pi-i' to narasite wa Yo no hô wo mite, hadukasi-ge ni waratte Kao wo kakusi-kakusi sita. Yo wa daite yari tai hodo kaaiku omotta.
    Sono Ko no Haha na Hito wa, mata, sono Kao no Katati ga, Yo no oitaru Haha no wakakatta koro wa tabun kon-na datta rô to omowareru hodo, Hana, Hô, Me......Kao ittai ga nite ita. Sosite, amari Jôhin na Kao de wa nakatta!
    Titi no yô ni amai Haru no Yo da! Kusiro no Ko-yakko――Tubo Jin-ko kara natukasii Tegami ga kita.
    Tôku de Kawadu no Koe ga suru. Ah, Hatu-Kawadu! Kawadu no Koe de omoidasu no wa, 5 nen mae no Ozaki Sensei no Sinagawa no Uti no Niwa, Sore kara, ima wa Kunohe no Kaigan ni iru Hotta Hide-ko san!
    Makura no Ue de Kongetu no "Tyûô-kôron" no Syôsetu wo yomu.


10TH SATURDAY

    Sakuya wa san-ji sugi made Toko no naka de Tokusyo sita no de, Kyô wa jyû-ji sugi ni okita. Hareta Sora wo Minami-kaze ga huki mawatte iru.
    Tikagoro no Tanpen Syôsetu ga, isshu no atarasii Syaseibun ni suginu yô na mono to natte simatta no wa, ina, Ware-ware ga yonde mo sô to sika omowanaku natte kita――tumari Humanzoku ni omô no wa, Jinsei-kwan to site no Sizen-syugi-Tetsugku no Ken'i ga dan-dan nakunatte kita koto wo simesu mono da.
    Jidai no Osiuturi da! Sizen-syugi wa hajime Warera no mottomo Nessin ni motometa Tetugaku de atta koto wa arasoware nai. Ga, itu sika Warera wa sono Riron jô no Mujun wo miidasita: sosite sono Mujun wo tukkosite Warera no susunda toki, Warera no Te ni aru Turugi wa Sizen-syugi no Turugi de wa naku natte ita.――Sukunaku mo Yo hitori wa, mohaya Bôkwan-teki Taido naru mono ni Manzoku suru koto ga dekinaku natte kita. Sakka no Jinsei ni taisuru Taido wa, Bôkwan de wa ikenu. Sakka wa Hihyôka de nakereba naranu. De nakereba, Jinsei no Kaikakusya de nakereba naranu. Mata......
    Yo no tôtatu sita Sekkyokuteki Sizen-syugi wa sunawati mata Sin-Risô-syugi de aru. Risô to yû Kotoba wo Warera wa nagai aida Budyoku site kita. Jissai mata katte Warera no idaite ita yô na Risô ni suginakatta. 'Life illusioin' ni suginakatta. Sikasi, Warera wa ikite iru, mata, ikineba naranu. Arayuru Mono wo Hakwai si tukusite arata ni Warera no Tedukara tateta, kono Risô wa, mohaya aware na Kûsô de wa nai. Risô sono-mono wa yahari 'Life illusion' da to site mo, sore nasi ni wa ikirarenu no da――Kono hukai Naibu no Yôkyû made mo suteru to nareba, Yo ni wa sinu yori hoka no Miti ga nai.

    Kesa kaite oita koto wa Uso da, sukunaku to mo Yo ni totte no Dai-itigi de wa nai. Ika naru Koto ni siro, Yo wa, Ningen no Jigyô to yû mono wa erai mono to omowanu. Hoka no Koto yori Bungaku wo erai, tattoi to omotte ita no wa, mada erai to wa donna Koto ka siranu toki no koto de atta. Ningen no suru Koto de nani hiotu erai Koto ga ari uru mono ka. Ningen sono-mono ga sude ni eraku mo tattoku mo nai no da.
    Yo wa tada ansin wo sitai no da!――Kô, Konya hajimete Ki ga tuita. Sô da, mattaku sô da. Sore ni tigai nai!
    Ah! Ansin――nan no Huan mo nai to yû Kokoro-moti wa, donna Adi no suru mono dattarô! Nagai koto――Mono-gokoro tuite irai, Yo wa sore wo wasurete kita.
    Tikagoro, Yo no Kokoro no mottomo Nonki na no wa, Sya no Ô-huku no Densya no naka bakari da. Uti ni iru to, tada, mô, nan no koto wa naku, Nani ka sinakereba naranu yô na Ki ga suru. 'Nani ka' to wa komatt mono da. Yomu koto ka? Kaku koto ka? Dotira de mo nai rasii. Ina, Yomu koto mo kaku koto mo, sono 'Nani ka' no uti no iti-bubun ni sika suginu yô da. Yomu, kaku, to yû hoka ni nan no Watasi no suru Koto ga aru ka? Sore wa wakaranu: ga, to ni kaku Nani ka wo sinakereba naranu yô na Ki ga site, donna Nonki na koto wo kangaete iru toki de mo, syottyû usiro kara 'Nani ka' ni okkakerarete iru yô na Kimoti da. Sore de ite, nan ni mo Te ni tukanu.
    Sya ni iru to, hayaku Jikan ga tateba yoi to omotte iru. Sore ga, betu ni Sigoto ga iya na no demo naku, atari no koto ga huyukwai na tame demo nai: hayaku kaette 'Nani ka' sinakereba naranu yô na Ki ni ottate rarete iru no da. Nani wo sureba yoi no ka wakaranu ga, toni-kaku Nani ka sinakereba naranu to yû Ki ni, usiro kara ottaterarete iru no da.
    Hûbutu no Uturi-kawari ga surudoku kanjirareru. Hana wo miru to, 'âh Hana ga saita' to yû koto――sono Tanjyun na koto ga, Ya no yô ni surudoku kanjirareru. Sore ga mata miru-miru hiraite yuku yô de, miteru uti ni tiru Toki ga ki sô ni omowareru. Nani wo mite mo, Nani wo kiite mo, Yo no Kokoro wa marude Kyûryû ni nozonde iru yô de, titto mo siduka de nai, otituite inai. Usiro kara osareru no ka, Mae kara hipparareru no ka, nan ni siro Yo no Kokoro wa siduka ni tatte irarenai, kakedasaneba naranu yô na Kimomti da.
    Sonnara Yo no motomete iru mono wa Nani da rô? Na? demo nai. Jigyô? demo nai. Koi? de mo nai. Tisiki? de mo nai. Sonnara Kane? Kane mo sô da. Sikasi sore wa Mokteki de wa nakute Syudan da. Yo no Kokoro no Soko kara motomete iru Mono wa Ansin da, kitto sô da!
    Tumari tukareta no da rô!
    Kyonen no Kure kara Yo no Kokoro ni okotta issyu no Kakumei wa, hijô na Ikioi de sinkô sita. Yo wa kono 100 niti no aida wo, kore to yû Teki wa Me no mae ni inakatta ni kakawarazu, tune ni Busô site sugosita, Tare Kare no Kubetu naku, Hito wa mina Teki ni mieta: Yo wa, iti-ban sitasii Hito kara jun-jun ni, sitteru kagir no Hito wo nokorazu korosite simai taku omotta koto mo atta. Sitasikereba sitasiidake, sono Hito ga nikukatta. 'Subete atarasiku,' sore ga Yo no iti-niti iti-niti wo Sihai sita 'atarasii' Kibô de atta. Yo no 'atarasii Sekai' wa, sunahati, 'Kyôsya――"Tuyoki-mono" no Sekai' de atta.
    Tetugauku to site no Sizensyugi wa, sono toki 'Syôkyoku-teki' no Honmaru wo sutete, 'Sekikyoku-teki' no hiroi Nohara e Tokkwan sita. Kare――'Tuyoki-mono' wa, arayuru Sokubaku to Insyû no hurui Yoroi wo nugi sutete, Sekirara de, Hito no Tikara wo kariru koto naku, Yûkan ni tatakawaneba naranakatta. Tetu no gotoki Kokoro wo motte, nakazu, warawazu, nan no Koryo suru tokoro naku, tada masigura ni Onore no hossuru tokoro ni susumaneba naranakatta. Ningen no Bitoku to iwareru arayuru mono wo Tiri no gotoku sutete, sosite, Ningen no nasienai Koto wo Heiki de nasaneba naranakatta. Nan no Tame ni? Sore wa kare ni mo wakaranai; ina Kare-jisin ga Kare no Mokuteki de, sosite mata Ningen Zentai no Mokuteki de atta.
    Busô sita 100 niti wa, tada Musya-burui wo siteru aida ni sugita. Yo wa tare ni katta ka? Yo wa dore dake tuyoku natta ka? Ah!
    Tumari tukareta no da. Tatakawazu site tukareta no da.
    Yo-no-naka wo wataru Miti ga hutatu aru, tada hutatu aru. 'All or Nothing!' Hitotu wa Subete ni taisite tatakô koto da: Kore wa katu, sikarazunba sinu. Mohitotu wa Nanimono ni taisite mo tatakawanu koto da: Kore wa katanu, sikasi makeru koto ga nai. Makeru koto no nai mono ni wa Ansin ga aru: tune ni katu mono ni wa Genki ga aru. Sosite dotira mo Mono ni osoreru to yû koto ga nai...... Sô kangaete mo Kokoro wa titto mo hare-bare siku mo Genki yoku mo naranu. Yo wa kanasii. Yo no Seikaku wa Hukô na Seikaku da. Yo wa Jakusya da, tare no nimo otoranu rippa na Katana wo motta Jakusya da. Tatakawazu ni wa orarenu, sikasi katu koto wa dekinu. Sikaraba sinu hoka ni Miti wa nai. Sikasi sinu no wa iya da. Sinitaku nai! Sikaraba dô site ikiru?
    Nani mo sirazu ni Nôhu no yô ni ikitai. Yo wa amari kasiko sugita. Hakkyô suru Hito ga urayamasii. Yo wa amari ni Mi mo Kokoro mo Kenkô da. Ah, ah, Nani mo Ka mo, subete wo wasurete simaitai! Dô site?
    Hito no inai Tokoro e ikitai to yû Kibô-ga, kono-goro, toki-doki Yo no Kokoro wo sosonokasu. Hito no inai Tokoro, sukunaku to mo, Hito no Koe no kikoezu, ina, Yo ni sukosi de mo Kwankei no aru yô na koto no kikoezu, tare mo kite Yo wo miru Kidukai no nai Tokoro ni, is-syûkan nari tô-ka nari, ina, iti-niti demo han--niti demo ii, tatta hitori korogatte ite mitai. Donna Kao wo site i-yô to, donna Nari wo site i-yô to, Hito ni mirareru Kidukai no nai Tokoro ni, Jibun no Karada wo ibun no omô mama ni yasumete mi tai.
    Yo wa kono Kangae wo wasuren ga tame ni, toki-doki Hito no takusan iru tokoro――Kwatudô-syasin e yuku. Mata, sono Hantai ni, nan to naku Hito――wakai Onna no natukasiku natta toki mo yoku. Sikasi soko ni mo Manzoku wa mi-idasarenai. Syasin――koto ni mo mottomo Baka-ge ta Koomo rasii Syasin wo mite iru toki dake wa, naruhodo siite Kodomo no Kokoro ni kaette, Subete wo wasureru koto mo dekiru: ga, ittan Syasin ga yande 'pah'' to akaruku nari, Kazu sirenu uyo-uyo sita Hito ga miedasu to, motto nigiyaka na, motto omosiroi tokoro wo motomeru Kokoro ga issô tuyoku Yo no Mune ni waki agatte kuru. Toki to site wa, sugu Hana no saki ni tuyoi Kami no Ka wo kagu toki mo ari, atatakai Te wo nigitte iru toki mo aru. Sikasi sono toki wa Yo no Kokoro ga Saihu no naka no Kanjô wo site iru toki da:ina, ikani site tare kara Kane wo kari-yô ka to kangaete iru toki da. Atatakai Te wo nigiri, tuyoi Kami no Ka wo kagu to, tada Te wo nigiru bakari de naku, yawaraka na, atataka na, massiro nai, Karada wo dakitaku naru. Sore wo togezu ni kaette kuru toki no Sabisii Kokoro-moti! Tada ni Seiyoku no Manzoku wo erarenakatta bakari no Sabisisa de wa nai: Jibun no hossuru mono wa subete uru koto ga dekinu to yû huka, osorosii Situbô da.
    Ikura ka no Kane no aru toki, Yo wa nan no tamerô koto naku, kano, Midara na Koe ni mitita, semai, kitanai Mati ni itta. Yo wa Kyonen no Aki kara Ima made ni, oyoso 13-4 kwai mo itta, sosite 10 nin bakari no Inbaihu wo katta. Mitu, Masa, Kiyo, Miine, Tuyu, Hana, Aki.....Na wo wasureta no mo aru. Yo no motometa no wa atatakai, yawarakai, massiro na Karada da: Karada mo Kokoro mo torokeru yô na Tanosimi da. Sikasi sorera no Onna wa, ya-ya Tosi no itta no mo, mada 16 gurai no hon no Kodomo na no mo, dore datte nan-byaku nin, nan-zen nin no Otoko to neta no bakari da. Kao ni Tuya ga naku, Hada wa tumetaku arete, Otoko to yû mono ni wa narekitte iru, nan no Sigeki mo kanjinai. Waduka no Kane wo totte sono Inbu wo tyotto Otoko ni kasu dake da. Sore igwai ni nan no Imi mo nai. Obi wo toku de mo naku, "Sâh," to itte, sono mama neru: nan no Hadukasi-ge mo naku Mata wo hirogeru. Tonari no Heya ni Hito ga i-yô to imai to sukosi mo kamô tokoro ga nai. (Koko ga, sikasi, omosiroi Karera no Irony da!) Nanzen nin ni kakimawasareta sono Inbu ni wa, mô Kinniku no Syûsyuku-sayô ga naku-natte iru, yurunde iru. Koko ni wa tada Haisetu-sayô no okonawareru bakari da: Karada mo Kokoro mo torokeru yô na Tanosimi wa Kusuri ni sitaku mo nai!
    Tuyoki Sigeki wo motomuru ira-ira sita Kokoro wa, sono Sigeki wo uke-tutu aru toki de mo Yo no Kokoro wo saranakatta. Yo wa mi-tabi ka yo-tabi tomatta koto ga aru. Jûhati no Masa no Hada wa Binbô na Tosima-onna no sore ka to bakari arete gasa-gasa site ita. Tatta hito-tubo no semai Heya no naka ni Akari mo naku, iyô na Nioi ga muh' to suru hodo komotte ita. Onna wa Ma mo naku nemutta. Yo no Kokoro wa tamaranaku ira-ira site, dô site mo nemurenai. Yo wa Onna no Mata ni Te wo irete, tearaku sono Inbu wo kakimawasita. Simai ni wa go-hon no yubi wo irete dekiru dake tuyoku osita. Onna wa sore de mo Me wo samasanu: osoraku mô Inbu ni tuite wa nan no Kankaku mo nai kurai, Otoko ni narete simatte iru no da. Nan-zen-nin no Otoko to neta Onna! Yo wa masu-masu ira-ira site kita. Sosite issô tuyoku Te wo ireta. Tui ni Te wa Tekubi made haitta. "U――u," to itte Onna wa sono toki Me wo samasita. Sosite ikinari Yo ni daki-tuita. "A――a――a, uresii! motto, motto――motto, a――a――a!" Jûhati ni site sude ni Hutû no sigeki de wa nan no Omosiromi mo kanjinaku natte iru Onna! Yo wa sono Te wo Onna no Kao ni nutakutte yatta. Sosite, Ryôte nari, Asi nari wo irete sono Inbu wo saite yaritaku omotta. Saite, sôsite Onna no Sigai no Ti-darake ni natte Yami no naka ni yokodawatte iru tokoro wo Maborosi ni nari to mi tai to omotta! Ah, Otoko ni wa mottomo Zankoku na Sikata ni yotte Onna wo korosu Kenri ga aru! Nan to yû osorosii, iyana Koto da rô!
    Sude ni Hito no inai tokoro e yuku koto mo dekizu, sareba to itte, nani hitotu Manzoku wo uru koto mo dekinu. Jinsei sonomono no Kutû ni tae ezu, Jinsei sonomono wo dô suru koto mo dekinu. Subete ga Sokubaku da, sosite omoi Sekinin ga aru. Dô sureba yoi no da? Hamlet wa, 'To be, or, not to be?' to itta. Sikasi Ima no Yo de wa, Si to yû Mondai wa Hamlet no Jidai yori mo motto Hukuzatu ni natta. Ah, Ilia! "Three of them" no naka no Ilia! Ilia no Kuwadate wa Ningen no kuwadate uru Saidai no Kuwadate de atta! Karera wa Jinsei kara Dassyutu sen to sita, ina, Dassyutu sita. Sosite aran kagiri no Tikara wo motte, Jinsei――Warera no kono Jinsei kara Kagiri naki Ankoku no Miti e kakedasita. Sosite, Isi no Kabe no tame ni Atama wo Hunsai site sinde simatta! Ah!
    Ilia wa Dokusin-mono de atta. Yo wa itu demo sô omô: Ilia wa urayamasiku mo Dokusin-mono de atta! Kanasiki Ilia to Yo to no sôi wa Koko da!
    Yo wa ima tukarete iru. Sosite Ansin wo motomete iru. Sono Ansin to wa donna mono ka? Doko ni aru no ka? Kutû wo siranu Mukasi no siori Kokoro ni wa hyaku-nen tatte mo kaeru koto ga dekinu. Ansin wa doko ni aru?
    'Byôki wo sitai.' Kono Kibo wa nagai koto Yo no Atama no naka ni hisonde iru. Byôki! Hito no itô kono Kotoba wa, Yo ni wa Hurusato no Yama no Na no yô ni natukasiku kikoeru――Ah, arayuru Sekinin wo Kaijo sita Jiyû no Seikwatu! Warera ga sore wo uru no Miti wa tada Byôki aru nomi da!
    'Minna sinde kurereba ii.' Sô omotte mo tare mo sinanu. 'Minna ga Ore wo Teki ni site kurere ba ii.' Sô omotte mo tare mo betudan Teki ni mo site kurenu. Tomo-dati wa minna Ore wo awarende iru. Ah! Naze Yo wa Hito ni aisareru no ka? Naze Yo wa Hito wo Sin kara nikumu koto ga dekinu ka? Aisareru to yû koto wa tae gatai Buzyoku da!
    Sikasi Yo wa tukareta! Yo wa Jakusya da!
        Iti-nen bakari no aida, iya, hito-tuki demo,
        Is-syûkan demo, mik-ka demo ii,
        Kami yo, mosi aru nara, ah, Kami yo,
        Watasino Nega wa kore dake da, Dôka,
        Karada wo doko ka sukosi kowasite kure, itakute mo
        Kamawanai, dôka Byôki sasite kure!
        Ah! dôka......

        Massiro na, yawaraka na, sosite
        Karada ga hu-u-wari to doko made mo――
        Ansin no Tani no soko mademo sidunde yuku yô na Huton no ue ni, iya,
        Yôrô-in no Huru-datami no ue de mo ii,
        Nanni mo kangaezu ni, (sono mama sinde mo
        Osiku wa nai!) yukkuri to nete mitai!
        Te Asi wo tare ka kite nusunde itte mo
        Sirazu ni iru hodo yukkuri nete mitai!

        Dô darô! sono Kimoti wa? Ah,
        Sôzô suru dake demo nemuku naru yô da! Ima kite iru
        Kono Kimono wo――omoi, omoi kono Sekinin no Kimono wo
        Nugi sutete simattara, (ah, uttori suru!)
        Watasi no kono Karada ga Suiso no yô ni
        Hu-u-wari to karoku natte,
        Takai, takai Osora e tonde yuku ka mo sirenai――"Hibari da."
        Sita de wa minna ga s・yû kamo sirenai! Ah!
        ――――――――――――――――――
        Si da! Si da! Watasi no Negai wa kore
        Tatta Hitotu da! Ah!

        A', a', honto ni korosu no ka? Matte kure,
        Arigatai Kami-sama, a', tyotto!

        Hon no sukosi, Pan wo kô dake da, go――go――go――sen demo ii!
        Korosu kurai no O-zihi ga aru nara!
        ――――――――――――――――――
    Ame wo hukunda nama-atatakai Kaze no huku Ban da. Tôku ni Kawadu no Koe ga suru.
    Mitu-ko kara, Asahikawa ni itta to yû Hagaki ga kita. Namae wa nan demo, Imôto wa Gwaikoku-jin no Isôrô da! Ani wa Hana-zakari no Miyako ni ite Sode-kuti no kireta Wataire wo kite iru: Imôto wa Hokkaidô no Mannaka ni 6 syaku no Yuki ni udumorete Sanbika wo utatte iru!
    Gozen 3 ji, hara-hara to Ame ga otite kita.


11TH SUNDAY

    8 ji goro Me wo samasita. Sakura to yû Sakura ga Tubomi hitotu nokosazu saki sorotte, tiru ni wa hayaki Nitiyô-bi, Sora wa nodoka ni hare watatte, atataka na Hi da. Nihyaku man no Tôkyô-jin ga Subete wo wasurete asobi kurasu Hanami wa Kyô da.
    Nani to naku Ki ga karoku sawayaka de, wakaki Hi no Genki to Tanosimi ga Karada-dyû ni ahurete iru yô da. Sakuya no Kimoti wa doko e itta no ka to omowareta.
    Kindaiti-kun wa Hana-muko no yô ni sowa-sowa site sesse to Yôhuku wo kite ita. Hutari wa turedatte 9 ji goro ni Soto e deta.
    Tawara-chô de Densya wo sutete Asakusa Kôen wo aruita. Asa nagara ni Hitode ga ôi. Yo wa tawamure ni 1 sen wo tôjite Uranai no Kami wo totta: Kiti to kaite aru. Yo no Tawamure wa sore kara hazimatta. Aduma-basi kara Kawa-zyôki ni notte Senju Ôhasi made Sumita-gawa wo sakanobotta. Hajimete mita Mukôzima no nagai Dote wa Sakura no Hana no Kumo ni udumorete mieru. Kanegahuti wo sugiru to, Gankai wa tasyô Denen no Omomuki wo obite kita. Tukuba-yama mo Hana-gumori ni mienai: miyuru kagiri wa Haru no No!
    Senju no Temai ni akaku nurareta nagai Tekkyô ga atta. Ryô-gan wa Yanagi no Midori. Senju ni agatte Hutari wa sibasi sokora wo buratuita. Yo wa, Suso wo hasiriori, Bôsi wo Amida ni kabutte, sikotama Tomo wo warawaseta.
    Soko kara mata Hune de Kanegahuti made kaeri, Hana no Tonneru ni natta Dote no ue wo Kazu sirenu Hito wo wakete Tôkyô no Hô ni mukatte aruita. Yo wa sono toki mo Bôsi wo Amida ni kaburi, Suso wo hasiotte aruita. Nan no Imi mo nai, tada sonna Koto wo site mitakatta no da: Kindaiti no Gwaibun ga warugatte iru no ga omosirokatta no da. Nanman no Haregi wo kita Hito ga, zoro-zoro to Hana no Tonneru no Sita wo aruku. Naka ni wa, mô, yopparatte iro-iro na dôketa Mane wo site iru no mo atta. Hutari wa hitori no Bizin wo mitukete, nagai koto sore to zengo site aruita. Hana wa doko made mo tuduite iru: Hito mo doko made mo tuduite iru.
    Kototoi kara mata Hune ni notte Asakusa ni kita. Soko de, to-aru Gyûnikuya de Hiru-mesi wo kutte, hutari wa akareta. Yo wa, kyô, Yosano-san no Taku no Utakwai e yukaneba naranakatta no da.
    Muron omosiroi koto no ari-yô ga nai. Sakuya no 'Pan-no-kwai' wa sakandatta to Hiraide-kun ga hanasite ita. Ato de kiita Yosii wa, 'Sakuban, Eitai-basi no ue kara yopparatte Syôben wo site, Junsa ni togamerareta.' to itte ita. Nandemo, minna yopparatte Ô-sawagi wo yatta rasii.
    Rei no gotoku Dai wo dasite Uta wo tukuru. Minna de 13 nin da. Sen no sunda no wa 9 ji goro dattarô. Yo wa kono-goro Mazime ni Uta nado wo tukuru Ki ni narenai kara, aikawarazu Henabutte yatta: Sono hutatu mitu:
        Waga Hige no Sita muku Kuse ga ikidôrosi,
            kono-goro nikuki Otoko ni nitareba.
        Itu mo ô akaki Uwagi wo kite aruku Otoko no
            Manako kono-goro Ki ni naru.
        Ku-ku to naru Nari-kawa iresi Kutu hakeba,
            Kaeru wo humu ni nite Kimi warosi.
        Sono mae ni Ô-guti aite Akubi suru made no
            Syugyô wa mi-tose mo kakaran.
        Ie wo dete, No koe, Yama koe, Umi koete, aware,
            doko ni ka yukan to omô.
        Tamerawazu sono Te torisi ni odorokite nigetaru
            Onna hutatabi kaerazu.
        Kimi ga Me wa Mannenpitu no sikake ni ya, taezu
            Namida wo nagasite i-tamô.
        Onna mireba Te wo huruwasete tadu-tadu to
            domorisi Otoko, Ima wa sa ni arazu.
        Awo-gusa no Dote ni ne-korobi, Gakutai no
            tôki Hibiki wo O-sora kara kiku.

    Akiko san wa Tetuya wo site tukurô to itte ita. Yo wa ii kagen na Yô wo kosiraete sono mama kaette kita. Kindaiti-kun no Heya ni wa Awomi-kun ga kite ita. Yo mo soko e itte 1 jikan bakari Muda-banasi wo sita. Sosite kono Heya ni kaetta.
    Ah, osi iti-niti wo tumaranaku sugosita! to yû Kwaikon no Jô ga niwaka ni Yo no une ni waita. Hana wo miru nara naze hitori itte, hitori de omô sama minakattaka? Uta no Kwai! nan to yû tumaranu Koto da rô!
    Yo wa Kodoku wo yorokobu Ningen da. Umare-nagara ni site Kozin-syugi no Ningen da. Hito to tomo ni sugosita Zikan wa iyasikumo, Tatakai de nai kagiri, Yo ni wa Kûkyo na Zikan no yô na Ki ga suru. Hitotu no Zikan wo hutari nari san-nin nari, aruiwa sore ijô ni Hito to tomo ni tuiyasu: sono Zikan no Kûkyo ni, sukunaku tomo hanbun Kûkyo ni mieru no wa Sizen no koto da.
    Izen Yo wa Hito no Hômon wo yorokobu Otoko datta. Sitagatte, iti-do kita Hito ni wa kono tugi ni mo kite kureru yô ni, naru-beku Manzoku wo ataete kaesô to sita mono da. Nan to yû tumaranu koto wo sita mono da-rô! Ima de wa Hito ni korarete mo sahodo uresiku mo nai. Uresii to omô no wa Kane no nai toki ni sore wo kaesite kuresô na Yatu no kita toki bakari da. Sikasi, Yo wa narubeku karitaku nai. Mosi Yo ga nani-goto ni yorazu, Hito kara awaremare, tasukerareru koto nasi ni Seikwatu suru koto ga dekitara, Yo wa daonna ni uresii darô! Kore wa aete kane no koto bakari de wa nai. Sô natta-ra Yo wa arayuru Ningen ni Kuti hitotu kikazu ni sugosu koto mo dekiru.
    'Tumaranaku kurasita!' sô omotta ga, sono Ato wo kangaeru no ga nani to naku osorosikatta. Tukue no ue wa gotya-gotya site iru. Yomubeki Hon mo nai. sasiatari seneba naranu Sigoto wa Haha ya sono ta ni Tegami wo kaku koto da ga, Yo wa sore mo osorosii koto no yô na Ki ga suru. Nan to de mo ii kara minna no yorokobu yô na koto wo itte yatte awarena Hito tati wo nagusame tai to wa itu mo omô. Yo wa Haha ya Tuma wo wasurete wa inai, ina, mainiti kangaete iru. Sosite ite Yo wa Kotosi ni natte kara Tegami ippon to Hagaki iti-mai yatta kiri da. Sono koto wa konaida no Setu-ko no Tegami ni mo atta. Setu-ko wa, 3 gwatu de yameru hadu datta Gakkô ni mada dete iru. Kongetu wa mada Tuki-hajime na no ni, Kyô-ko no Kodukai ga nijissen sika nai to itte kita. Yo wa sono tame Sya kara sukosi yokei ni Zensyaku sita. 15 yen dake okutte yaru Tumori datta no da. Sore ga, Tegami wo kaku ga iyasa ni iti-niti hutuka to sugite, ah......!

    Kono Hi, Asa ni Gunma-ken no Arai to yû Hito ga kita. 'Oti-guri' to yû Zassi wo dasu sô da.


12TH MONDAY

    Kyô mo Kinô ni otoranu uraraka na iti-niti de atta. Kaze naki Sora ni Hana wa mikka no Inoti wo tanosinde mada tiranu. Mado no sita no Sakura wa Hana no ue ni iro asaki Wakame wo huite iru. Kobu-no-ki no Ha wa daibu ôkiku natta.
    Saka wo orite Ta-mati ni deru to, migi-gawa ni ikken on Geta-ya ga aru. Sono mae wo tôru to, huto, tanosii, nigiyaka na Koe ga, natukasii Kioku no naka kara no yô ni Yo no Mimi ni haitta. Yo no Me ni wa hiro-biro to sita Awokusa no Nohara ga ukanda――Geta-ya no Noki no Kago no naka de Hibari ga naite ita no da. 1 pun ka 2 hun no aida, Yo wa kano Hurusato no Oide-no to, soko e yoku Jûryô ni issyo ni itta, sinda Itoko no koto wo omoidasite aruita.
    Omô ni, Yo wa sunde ni huruki――sikari! huruki Nakama kara hanarete, Zibun hitori no Ie wo tukurubeki Ziki to natta. Yûzin to yû mono ni hutatu no Syurui ga aru. Hitotu wa tagai no Kokoro ni nani ka ai-motomuru tokoro ga atte no Maziwari: sosite Hitotu wa tagai no Syumi nari, Iken nari, Rieki nari ni yotte ai-tikaduita Maziwari da. Dai-iti no Yûzin wa, sono tagai no Syumi nari, Iken nari, Rieki nari, aruiwa Tii nari, Syokugyô nari ga tigatte ite mo, sore ga tyokusetu hutarino aida ni Mazime ni arasowaneba naranu yô na Baai ni tatiitaranu kagiri, kessite hutari no Yûjô no Samatage to wa naranu. Sono aida no Maziwari wa hikaku-teki nagaku tuduku.
    Tokoro ga Dai-ni no Baai ni okeru Yûzin ni atte wa, sore to yohodo Omomuki wo koto ni site iru. Muron kono Baai ni oite naritatta mono mo, Totyû kara Dai-iti no Baai no Kwankei ni ututte, nagaku tuduku koto mo aru. Ga, daitai kono syu no Kwankei wa, iwaba, issyu no Torihiki Kwankei de aru, Syôgyô-teki Kwankei de aru. A to B to no aida no Tyokusetu-kwankei de nakute, A no Syoyû suru Zaisan, mosikuwa, Kenri――sunawati, Syumi nari, Iken nari, Rieki nari――to, B no yûsuru sore to no Kwankei de aru. Mise nari Ginkô nari no sôgo no Kwankei wa, sôgo no Eigyô-jôtai ni nan no Henkwa no okoranu aida dake tuduku: ittan sono dotira ka ni aru Henkwa ga okoru to, Torihiki wa soko ni Danzetu sezaru wo enai. Makoto ni atarimae no koto da.
    Mosi sore ga Daiiti no Kwankei nara, Yûzin wo usinau to yû koto wa, Hukô na koto ni tigai nai: ga, mosi mo sore ga Dai-ni no Baai ni okeru Kwankei de atta nara, kanarazu simo Kôhuku to wa ienu ga, mata aete Hukô de wa nai. Sono Hatan ga Judô-teki ni okoreba, sono Hito ga Bujoku wo uketa koto ninari, Zidô-teki ni okosita to sureba, katta koto ni naru. Yo ga kokoni 'huruki Nakama' to itta no wa, zitu wa, Yo no Kwako ni oite no mottomo atarasii Nakama de aru, ina, atta. Yo wa Yosano-si woba Ani to om Titi to mo, muron, omotte inai: ano Hito wa tada Yo wo Sewa site kureta Hito da. Sewa sita Hito to sareta Hito to no Kwankei wa, sita hô no Hito ga sareta hô no Hito yori erakute iru aida, mosikuwa tagai ni betu no Miti wo aruiteru Baai, mosikuwa sita hô no Hito ga sareta hô no Hito yori eraku naku natta toki dake tuduku: onazi Miti wo aruite ite, sosite tagai no aida ni Kyôsô no aru Baai ni wa taete simau. Yo wa ima Yosano-si ni taisite betu ni Keii wo motte inai: onaziku Bungaku wo yari nagara mo nani to naku betu no Miti wo aruite iru Yô ni omotte iru. Yo wa Yosano-si to sara ni tikaduku Nozomi wo motanu to tomo ni, aete kore to wakareru Hituyô wo kanzinai: Toki araba imamade no On wo syasitai to mo omotte iru. Aki-ko san wa betu da: Yo wa ano Hito wo Ane no yô ni omou koto ga aru......Kono Hutari wa betu da.
    Sinsisya no Kwankei kara eta ta no Yûzin no Tasû wa Yosano Husai to wa yohodo Omomuki wo koto ni site iru. Hirano to wa sude ni Kenkwa sita. Yosii wa Kimen site Hito wo odosu Hôsi na Kûsô-ka no Aryû――mottomo aware na Ayrû da. Mosi Karera no iwayuru Bungaku to Yo no Bungaku to onazi mono de aru nara, Yo wa itu demo Yo no Pen wo suteru ni tamerawanu. Sono hoka no Hito-bito wa yû ni mo taranu――
    Ina. Konna Koto wa nan no Yô no nai koto da. Kangaetatte nan ni mo naranu. Yo wa tada Yo no hossuru Koto wo nasi, Yo no hossuru Tokoro ni yuki......Subete Yo-jisin no Yôkyû ni sitagaeba, sorede yoi.
    Sikari. Yo wa Yo no hossuru mama ni! That is all! All of all!
    Sosite. Hito ni aiserareruna. Hito no Megumi wo ukeruna, Hito to Yakusoku suruna. Hito no Yurusi wo kowaneba naranu Koto wo suruna. Kessite Hito ni Jiko wo kataruna. Tune ni Kamen wo kabutte ore. Itu nandoki demo Ikusa no dekiru yô ni――Itu nandoki demo sono Hito no Atama wo tataki uru yô ni site oke. Hitori no Hito to Yûzin ni naru toki wa, sono Hito to itu ka kanarazu Zekkô suru koto aru wo wasururuna.


13TH TUESDAY

    Asa hayaku chotto Me wo samasita toki, Jyochû ga hôbô no Amado wo kutte iru Oto wo kiita. Sono hoka ni wa nanni mo kikanakatta. Sosite sono mama mata nemutte simatte, Hukaku no Haru no Nemuri wo 11 ji chikaku made mo musabotta. Hana-gumori sita, Nodoka na Hi: Manto no Hana wa soro-soro chiri hajimeru de arô. O-tsune ga kite, Mado-garasu wo Kirei ni fuite kureta.
    Oitaru Haha kara kanashiki Tegami ga kita:――

    "Kono aida Miyazaki sama ni okurareshi O-tegami de wa, nan to mo yorokobi ori, Konnichi ka Konnichi ka to machi ori, haya Shi-gwatsu ni nari mashita. Ima made oyobanai Mori ya Makanai itashi ori, Hi ni mashi Kyô-ko ogari, Watakushi no Chikara de kaderu koto oyobi kanemasu. Sochira e yobu koto wa deki masenka? Zehi on-shirase kunasare taku negaimasu. Kono aida, 6 ka 7 ka no Kaze Ame tuyoku, Uchi ni Ame mori, oru tokoro naku, Kanashimi ni, Kyô-ko oboi tachikurashi, nan no Aware na koto (to) omoimasu. Shi-gwatsu 2 ka yori Kyô-ko Kaze wo hiki, imada naorazu. (Setsu-ko wa) Asa 8 ji de, 5 ji ka 6 (ji) ka made kaerazu. Okkasan to nakare, nan to mo komari masu. Sore ni Ima wa Kodzukai nashi. Iti-yen de mo yoroshiku soro: nan to ka hayaku okuri kunasare taku negaimasu. Omae no Tsugô wa nan-nichi goro yobi kudasaru ka? Zehi shirasete kure yo. Henji naki to(ki) wa kochira shimai, mina mairi masu kara sono Shitaku nasare mase. Hakodate ni orare masen kara, kore dake môshi age mairase soro. Kashiko.
    Shigwatsu 9 ka.

Katsu yori    
      Ishikawa sama.

    Yobo-yobo shita Hira-gana no, Kana-chigai darake na Haha no Tegami! Yo de nakereba nan-pito to iedomo kono Tegami wo yomi uru Hito wa aru mai! Haha ga osanakatta toki wa kano Morioka Senbokuchô no Terakoya de, Dai-ichi no Shûsai datta to yû. Sore ga hito-tabi Waga Chichi ni Ka site irai 40 nen no aida, Haha wa osoraku ichi-do mo Tegami wo kaita koto ga nakatta rô. Yo no hajimete uketotta Haha no Tegami wa, Ototoshi no Natsu no sore de atta. Yo wa Haha hitori wo Furusato ni nokoshite Hakodate ni itta. Oitaru Haha wa kano itowashiki Shibutami ni itatamarenaku natte, wasure hatete ita Hira-gana wo omoi dashite Yo ni kanashiki Tegami wo okutta! Sono go Yo wa, Kyonen no hajime Kushiro ni itte Otaru kara no Haha no Tegami wo uketotta. Tôkyô ni dete kara no 5 hon-me no Tegami ga Kyô kita no da. Hajime no koro kara miru to Machigai mo sukunaishi, Ji mo umaku natte kita. Sore ga kanashii! Ah! Haha no Tegami!

    Kyô wa Yo ni totte kessite Kôfuku na Hi de wa nakatta. Okita toki wa, nani to naku ne-sugosita Kedarusa wa aru mono no, doko to naku Ki ga nonbiri site, Karada-jû no Chi no meguri no yodomi naku sumiyaka naru wo kanjita. Sikasi sore mo chyotto no koto de atta: Yo no Kokoro wa Haha no Tegami wo yonda toki kara, mô, sawayaka de wa nakatta. Iro-iro no Kangae ga ukanda. Atama wa nani ka kô, Haru no Appaku to yû yô na mono wo kanjite, Jibun no Kangae sono mono made ga tada mô madarukkoshii. 'Dôse Yo ni wa kono Omoi Sekinin wo hatasu Ate ga nai. ......Mushiro hayaku Zetsubô shite shimaitai.' Konna Koto ga kangaerareta.
    Sô da! 30 kwai gurai no Shimbun Shôsetu wo kakô. Sore nara aruiwa Angwai hayaku Kane ni naru ka mo shirenai!
    Atama ga matomaranai. Densha no Kippu ga iti-mai shika nai. Tô-tô Kyô wa Sha wo yasumu koto ni shita.
    Kashihon-ya ga kita keredo, 6 sen no Kane ga nakatta. Sosite, "Kûchû-sensô" to yû Hon wo karite yonda.

ATARASHIKI MIYAKO NO KISO.

YAGATE SEKAI NO IKUSA WA KITARAN!
PHOENIX NO GOTOKI KÛCHÛ-GUNKAN GA SORA NI MURETE,
SONO SHITA NI ARAYURU TOFU GA KOBOTAREN!
IKUSA WA NAGAKU TSUDZUKAN! HITO-BITO NO NAKABA WA HONE TO NARUNARAN!
SHIKARU NOCHI, AWARE, SHIKARU NOCHI, WARERA NO
"ATARASHIKI MIYAKO" WA IDZUKO NI TATSUBEKI KA?
HOROBITARU REKISHI NO UE NI KA? SHIKÔ TO AI NO UE NI KA? INA, INA.
TSUCHI NO UE NI, SHIKARI, TSUCHI NO UE NI: NAN NO――HÛHU TO YÛ
SADAMARI MO KUBETSU MO NAKI KÛKI NO NAKA NI:
HATE SHIRENU AOKI, AOKI SORA NO MOTO NI!


14TH WEDNESDAY

    Hare. Satô san ni Byôki-todoke wo yatte, Kyô to Asu yasumu koto ni shita. Sakuya Kindaichi kun kara, konaida no 2 yen kaeshite kureta no de, Kyô wa Tabako ni komaranakatta. Soshite kaki-hajimeta: Dai wa "Hô", ato de "Mokuba" to aratameta.
    Sôsaku no Kyô to Seiyoku to wa yohodo chikai yô ni omowareru. Kashihon-ya ga kite Myô na Hon wo miserareru to, nandaka yonde mitaku natta: soshite karite shimatta. Hitotsu wa "Hana no Oboroyo", hitotsu wa "Nasake no Tora-no-maki". "Oboroyo" no hô wo Rôma-ji de Chômen ni utsushite, 3 jikan bakari tsuiyashita.
    Yoru wa Kindaichi kun no Heya ni Nakajima kun to, Uwasa ni kiite ita Shô-shijin kun――Uchiyama Shun kun ga kita no de, Yo mo itta. Uchiyama kun no Hana no Kakkô tara nai! Bukakkô na Sato-imo wo Kao no Mannaka ni kuttsukete, sono Saki wo kezutte hirataku shita yô na Hana da. Yoku shaberu, tatetsuzuke ni shaberu: marude Hige wo hayashita Mamezô no yô da. Se mo hikui. Yo no mita Kazu shirenu Hito no uchi ni konna awarena Hito wa nakatta. Makoto ni awarena, soshite dôketa, Tsumi no nai――mushiro sore ga Do wo sugoshite, kaette omô-sama bunnagutte de mo yaritaku naru hodo aware-na Otoko da. Majime de yû koto wa mina Kokkei ni kikoeru: soshite nani ka odoketa Koto wo itte Bukakkô na Hana wo susuri-ageru to naku no ka to omoeru. Shijin! Kono Hito no tsutomeru Yaku wa Omatsuri no Hi ni Katakage e Kodomo-ra wo atsumete, naku yô na Uta wo utai nagara Hachimaki wo shite odoru――sore da!
    Ame ga futte kita: mô 10 ji chikakatta. Nakajima kun wa Shakwaishugi-sha da ga, Kare no Shakwaishugi wa Kizoku-teki na Shakwaishugi da――Kare wa Kuruma de kaette itta. Soshite Uchiyama kun――Shijin wa Honto no Shakwaishugi-sha da......Bangasa wo karite kaette iku sono Sugata wa makoto ni Shijin rashii Kakkô wo sonaete ita......
    Nani ka mono-taranu Kanji ga Yo no Mune ni――soshite Kindaichi kun no Mune ni mo atta. Futari wa sono Tokono-ma no Kwabin no Sakura no Hana wo, Heya-ippai ni――shiita Futon no ue ni chirashita. Soshite Kodomo no yô ni kyak-kya sawaida.
    Kindaichi kun ni Futon wo kabusete bata-bata tataita. Soshite Yo wa kono Heya ni nigete kita. Soshite sugu kanjita: "Ima no wa yahari Genzai ni taisuru isshu no Hakwai da!"
    "Mokuba" wo 3 mai kaite neta. setsu-ko ga koishikatta――shikashi sore wa wabishii Ame no Oto no tame de wa nai: "Hana no Oboro-yo" wo yonda tame da!
    Nakajima Kotô kun wa Yo no Genkô wo utte kureru to itta.


15TH THURSDAY

    Ina! Yo ni okeru Setsu-ko no Hitsuyô wa tan ni Seiyoku no tame bakari ka? Ina! Ina!
Koi wa sameta. Sore wa Jijitsu da: Tôzen na Jijitsu da――kanashimu beki,     shikashi yamu wo enu Jijitsu da!
    Shikashi Koi wa JInsei no Subete de wa nai: sono ichi-bubun da, shikamo goku Wazuka na ichi-bubun da. Koi wa Yûgi da: Uta no yô na mono da. Hito wa dare de mo utaitaku naru toki ga aru: soshite utatteru toki wa tanoshii. Ga, Hito wa kesshite Isshô utatte bakari wa orarenu mono de aru. Onaji Uta bakari utatteru to ikura tanoshii Uta demo akiru. Mata ikura utaitakutte mo utaenu toki ga aru.
    Koi wa sameta: Yo wa tanoshikatta Uta wo utawanaku natta. Shikashi sono Uta sono mono wa tanoshii: itsu made tatte mo tanoshii ni chigai nai.
&    Yo wa sono Uta bakari wo utatteru koto ni akita koto wa aru: shikashi, sono Uta wo iya ni natta no de wa nai. Setsu-ko wa Makoto ni Zenryô na Onna da. Sekai no doko ni anna Zenryô na, yasashii, soshite Shikkari shita Onna ga aru ka? Yo wa Tsuma to shite Setsu-ko yori yoki Onna wo mochi-uru to wa dô-shite mo kangaeru koto ga dekinu. Yo wa Setsu-ko igwai no Onna wo koishii to omotta koto wa aru: hoka no Onna to nete mitai to omotta koto mo aru: Gen ni Setsu-ko to nete-i-nagara sô omotta koto mo aru. Soshite Yo wa neta――hoka no Onna to neta. Shikashi sore wa Setsu-ko to nan no Kwankei ga aru? Yo wa Setsu-ko ni Fumanzoku datta no de wa nai: Hito no Yokubô ga Tanichi de nai dake da.
&    Yo no Setsu-ko wo aishiteru koto wa Mukashi mo Ima mo nan no Kawari ga nai. Setsu-ko dake wo aishita no de wa nai ga, mottomo aishita no wa yahari Setsu-ko da. Ima mo――koto ni kono-goro Yo wa shikiri ni Setsu-ko wo omô koto ga ôi.
    Hito no Tsuma to shite Yo ni Setsu-ko hodo kaaisô na Kyôgû ni iru mono ga arô ka?!
    Genzai no Fûfu-seido――subete no Shakwai-seido wa Machigai darake da. Yo wa naze Oya ya Tsuma ya Ko no tame ni Sokubaku sareneba naranuka? Oya ya Tsuma ya Ko wa naze Yo no Gisei to naraneba naranuka? Shikashi sore wa Yo ga Oya ya Setsu-ko ya Kyô-ko wo aishiteru Jijitsu to wa onozukara Betsumondai da.

    Makoto ni Iya na Asa de atta. Koi no gotoku natsukashii Haru no Nemuri wo sutete oki-ideta no wa, Mô 10 ji sugi de atta. Ame――tuyoi Ame ga Mado ni shibuite ita: Kûki wa jime-jime shite iru. Benjo ni itte odoroite kaette kita: Kinô made Fuyu-ki no mama de atta Ki ga mina Asa-midori no Me wo fuite iru: Nishikata-machi no Kodachi wa Kinô made no Hana-goromo wo nugi-sutete, Ame no naka ni kemuru yô na Waka-ba no Usumono o tsukete iru.
    Hito-ban no Haru no Ame ni Sekai wa Midori-iro ni kawatta!
    Kesa mata Geshuku-ya no Saisoku!
    Kô yû Seikwatsu wo itsu made tsuzukeneba naranu ka? Kono Kangae wa sugu ni Yo no Kokoro wo yowaku shita. Nani wo suru Ki mo nai. Sono uchi ni Ame ga hareta. Doko kae yuki-tai. Sô omotte Yo wa deta. Kindaichi-kun kara Masaka no Toki ni Shichi ni irete tsukae to iwarete ita Inbanesu wo Matsusaka-ya e motte itte, 2 yen 50 sen kari, 50 sen wa Sen ni irete iru no no Rishi ni ireta. Sô shite Yo wa doko ni yuku beki ka wo kangaeta. Kôgwai e detai――ga, doko ni shiyô? Itsu ka Kindaichi kun to Hanami ni itta yô ni, Azuma-bashi kara Kawa-jôki ni notte Senju-Ôhashi e yuki, Inaka meita Keshiki no naka wo tada hitori aruite mi-yô ka? aruiwa mata, moshi doko ka ni Akiya de mo attara, kossori sono naka e haitte yûgata made nete mi-tai! To-ni-kaku Yo no sono Toki no Kimochi dewa Hito no takusan iru tokoro wa iya de atta. Yo wa sono Kangae wo kimeru tame ni Hongô-kwan――Kwankôba wo hito-mawari shita. Soshite Densha ni notte Ueno ni itta.
    Ame no ato no Hito sukunai Ueno! Yo wa tada sô omotte itta. Sakura to Sakura no Ki wa, Hana ga chiri-tsukushite Gaku dake nokotte iru――kitanai Iro da. Kaede no Midori! Naita ato no Kao no yô na Miniku-sa no Soko kara, doko to naku mô Hatsu-natsu no Shigeki tsuyoi Chikara ga arawarete iru yô ni mieru. To-aru Dô no ushiro de, 40 gurai no, Raibyô-kwanja no Onna ga Junsa ni shiraberarete ita. Doko ka e yukitai! Sô omotte Yo wa aruita. Takai Hibiki ga Mimi ni haitta: sore wa Ueno no Station no Kisha no Kiteki da――
    Kisha ni nori-tai! sô Yo wa omotta. Doko made to yû Ate wa nai ga, notte, soshite mada itta koto no nai Tokoro e yuki tai! Saiwai Futokoro ni wa 3 yen bakari aru. Ah! Kisha ni noritai! Sô omotte aruite iru to potsuri-potsuri Ame ga ochite kita.
    Ame wa betsu ni Honburi ni mo narazu ni hareta ga, sono toki wa mô Yo wa Hirokôji no Shôhinkwan no naka wo aruite ita. Soshite, Baka-na! to omoi nagara, sono naka no Yôshoku-ten e haitte Seiyô-ryôri wo kutta.
    Genkôshi, Chômen, Ink nado wo katte kaetta toki Kindaichi kun mo kaette kita soshite issho ni Yu ni haitta.
    "Mokuba"!


16TH FRIDAY

    Nan to yû Baka na koto darô! Yo wa Sakuya, Kashihon-ya kara karita Tokugawa-jidai no Kôshokubon "Hana no Oboroyo" wo 3 ji goro made Chômen ni utsushita――ah, Yo wa! Yo wa sono hageshiki Tanoshimi wo motomuru Kokoro wo seishi kaneta!
    Kesa wa Iyô naru Kokoro no Tsukare wo idaite 10 ji-han goro ni Me wo samashita. Soshite Miyazaki kun no Tegami wo yonda. Ah! Minna ga shinde kureru ka, Yo ga shinu ka: Futatsu ni Hitotsu da! Jissai Yo wa sô omotta. Soshite Henji wo kaita. Yo no Seikwatsu no Kiso wa dekita, tada Geshuku wo hikiharau Kane to, Uchi wo motsu Kane to, sore kara kazoku wo yobi-yoseru Ryohi! sore dake areba yoi! Kô kaita. Soshite shini-taku natta.
    Yarô-yarô to omoinagara, Tegami wo kaku no ga iya-sa ni――osoroshisa ni, Kyô made yarazu ni oita 1 yen wo Haha ni okutta――Miyazaki kun no Tegami ni Dôfû shite.
    Yo wa Sakuya no Tsuzuki――'Hana no Oboroyo' wo utsushite, Sha wo yasunda.
    Yoru ni natta. Kindaichi kun ga kite, Yo ni Sôsaku no Kyô wo okosase yô to iro-iro na Koto wo itte kureta. Yo wa nan to yû koto naku, tada mô Muyami ni Kokkei na koto wo shita.
    "Jibun no Shôrai ga Futashika da to omô kurai, Ningen ni totte Anshin na koto wa arimasen ne! Ha, ha, ha, ha!"
    Kindaichi kun wa Yoko ni taoreta.
    Yo wa Mune no Abara-bone wo ton-ton Yubi de tataite, "Boku ga ima Nani wo――nan no Kyoku wo hiiteru ka, wakari masu ka?"
    Aran kagiri no Baka-mane wo shite, Kindaichi kun wo kaeshita. Soshite sugu Pen wo totta. 30 pun sugita. Yo wa Yo ga tôtei Shôsetsu wo kakenu Koto wo mata Majime ni kangae neba naranakatta. Yo on Mirai ni Nan no Kibô no nai koto wo kangaeneba naranakatta. Soshite Yo wa mata Kindaichi kun no Heya ni itte, Kazu-kagiri no Baka-mane wo shita. Mune ni ôkina Hito no Kao wo Kai-tari, iro-iro na Kao wo shitari, Kuchibue de Uguisu ya Hototogisu no Mane wo shiteri――soshite Saigo ni Yo wa naifu wo toriagete Shibai no Hito-goroshi no Mane wo shita. Kindaichi kun wa Heya no soto ni nigedashita! Ah! Yo wa kitto sono toki aru osoroshii koto wo kangaete itatta Sôi nai.
    Yo wa sono Heya no Dentô wo keshita, soshite To-bukuro no naka ni Naifu wo furiagete tatte ita!――
    Futari ga sara ni Yo no Heya de Kao wo awashita toki wa, dotchi mo Ima no koto wo akirete ita. Yo wa, Jisatsu to yû koto wa kesshite kowai koto de nai to omotta.
    Kakute, Yoru, Yo wa nani wo shita ka? "Hana no Oboroyo"!
    2 ji goro datta. Koishikawa no Oku no Hô ni Kwaji ga atte, Makkura na Sora ni tada hitosuji no Usuakai Kemuri ga massugu ni tachi nobotta.
    Hi! Ah!


17TH SATURDAY

    10 ji goro ni Namiki kun ni okosareta. Yo wa Namiki kun kara Tokei wo Shichi ni irete mada kaesazu ni iru. Sono Namiki kun no Koe de, fukai, fukai Nemuri no Soko kara yobisamasareta toki, Yo wa nan to mo ienu Fuyukwai wo kanjita. Tsumi wo okashita mono ga, koko nara Anshin to doko ka e kakurete ita tokoro e, Junsa ni fumi-komareta nara konna Kimochi ga suru ka mo shirenu.
    Dôse omoshiroi Hanashi no ari-yô wa nai. Muron Tokei no Saisoku wo uketan demo nande mo nai ga, futari no Aida ni wa fukai Seikaku no Hedatari ga aru...... Gorky no koto nado wo katari-atte 12 ji goro wakareta.
    Kyô koso kanarazu kakô to omotte Sha wo yasunda――ina, yasumitakatta kara kaku koto ni shita noda. Sore wa to-mo-kaku mo Yo wa Sakuya kangaete oita "Aka Ink" to yû no o kakô to shita. Yo ga Jisatsu suru koto wo kaku no da. Nôto e 3 mai bakari wa kaita......soshite kakenaku natta!
    Naze kakenu ka? Yo wa tôtei Yo-jishin wo Kakukan suru koto ga dekinai noda. Ina. To-ni-kaku Yo wa kakenai――Atama ga matomaranu.
    Sore kara "Mokichiism" to yû Dai de katte "Nyûkyô-ki" ni kakô to omotte ita koto wo kakô to shita ga......
    Furo de Kindaichi kun ni atta. Ima Jinbo Hakase kara Denwa ga kakatte kita ga, Karafuto-yuki ga kimari sô da to yû. Kindaichi kun mo odoroite iru shi, Yo mo odorokazaru wo enakatta. Iku to sureba kono Haru-chû darô to yû koto da. Kabafuto-chô no Shokutaku to shite 'Giriyâku' 'Orocko' nado yû Dojin no Kotoba wo shiraberu ni yuku no da sô da.
    Furo kara agatte kite Tsukue ni mukau to kanashiku natta. Kindaichi kun ga Kabafuto e yuki taku nai no wa, Tôkyô de Seikwatsu suru koto no dekiru tame da: mada Dokushin de iro-iro na Nozomi ga aru tame da. Moshi Yo ga Kindaichi kun dattara to kangaeta. Ah, ah!
    Ma mo naku Kindaichi kun ga, "Doppo-shû Dai-ni" wo motte haitte kita: soshite nakitaku natta to itta. Soshite mata Kyô-chi-nichi Yo no koto bakari kangaete ita to itte, itamashii Metsuki wo shita.
    Kindaichi kun ni Doppo no "Hirô" sono ta 2, 3 pen wo yonde moratte kiita. Sore kara Kabafuto no iro-iro no Hanashi wo kiita. Ainu no koto, Asa-zora ni Habataki suru Washi no koto, Fune no koto, Hito no hairenu Dai-shinrin no koto......
    "Kabafuto made Ryohi ga ikura kakari masu?" to Yo wa tôta.
    "20 yen bakari deshô."
    "Hm―m," to Yo wa kangaeta: soshite itta. "Atchi e ittara nan ka Boku ni dekiru yô na Kuchi wo mitsukete kuremasen ka? Junsa de mo ii!"
    Tomo wa itamashi Me wo shite Yo wo mita.
    Hitori ni naru to, Yo wa mata iya na kangae-goto wo tsuzukenakereba naranakatta. Kongesu mo mô Nakaba-sugi da. Sha ni wa Zenshaku ga aru shi......soshite, kakenu!
    'Subaru' no Uta wo naosô ka to mo omotta ga, Kami wo nobeta dake de Iya ni natta.
    Akiya e haitte nete ite, Junsa ni tsurerarete iku Otoko no koto wo kakitai to omotta ga, shikashi Fude wo toru Ki ni narenu.
    Naki-tai! Shin ni naki-tai!
    "Danzen Bungaku wo yame yô." to hitori de itte mita.
    "Yamete, dô suru? Nani wo suru?"
    "Death!" to kotaeru hoka wa nai no da. Jissai Yo wa nani wo sureba yoi no da? Yo no suru koto wa nani ka aru darô ka?
    Itsuso Ianaka no Shimbun e de mo ikô ka! Shikashi itta tote yahari Kazoku wo yobu Kane wa Yôi ni deki sô mo nai. Sonnara, Yo no Dai-ichi no Mondai wa Kazoku no koto ka?
    To-ni-kaku Mondai wa Hitotsu da. Ika ni shite Seikwatsu no Sekinin no Omosa wo kanjinai yô ni narô ka?――kore da.
    Kane wo Jibun ga motsu ka, shikarazunba, Sekinin wo Kaijo shite morô ka: Futatsu ni Hitotsu.
    Osoraku, Yo wa shinu made kono MOndai wo shotte ikaneba naranu darô! To-ni-kaku nete kara kangae yô.(yoru 1 ji.)


18TH SUNDAY

    Hayaku Me wa samashita ga, okitaku nai. To ga shimatte iru no de, Heya no naka wa usu-gurai. 11 ji made mo Toko no naka ni mozokusa shite ita ga, Sha ni ikô ka, ikumai ka to yû, tatta hitotsu no ondai wo mote-amashita. Ikô ka? Ikitaku nai. Ikumai ka? Iya, iya, sore de wa warui. Nan-to mo Ketsumatsu no tsukanu uchi ni Jochû ga mô Tonari no Heya made Sôji shite kita no de okita. Kao wo aratte kuru to, Toko wo agete dete yuku Otsune no Yatsu:
    "Sôji wa O-hiru sugi ni shite yaru kara, nê, iide shô?"
    "Âh." to Yo wa Kinuke shita yô na Koe de kotaeta."――shite yaru? Hm." to, kore wa Kokoro no uchi.
    Setsu-ko kara Hagaki ga kita. Kyô-ko ga chikagoro mata Karada no Guai ga yoku nai no de Isha ni miseru to, mata I-chô ga warui――shikamo Mansei da to itta to no koto. Yo ga inai no de Kokoro bosoi: Tegami ga hoshii to kaite aru.
    To ni kaku Sha ni yuku koto ni shita. Hitotsu wa Setsu-ko no Tegami wo mite Ki wo kaeta tame de mo aru ga, mata, 'Kyô mo yasunderu!' to Jochû-domo ni omowaretaku nakatta karada. 'Nâni, Iya ni nattara Tochû kara dokka e asobi ni ikô!' Sô omotte deta ga, yappari Densha ni noru to Kippu wo Sukiyabashi ni kirasete Sha ni itte shimatta.
    Mittsu guraino kaaii Onna no Ko ga notte ita. Kyô-ko no koto ga sugu Yo no Kokoro ni ukanda. setsu-ko wa Asa ni dete Yû-gata ni kaeru: sono ichi-nichi, semakurushii Uchi no naka wa Okkasan to Kyô-ko dake! Ah, ObIa-san to Mago! Yo wa sono ichi-nichi wo omôto, Me ga onozukara kasumu wo oboeta. Kodomo no Tanoshimi wa Kumino no hoka ni nai. Sono Tanchô na, usu-gurai Seikwatsu ni unda toki, Kyô-ko wa kitto nani ka tabe-tai to segamu de arô. Nani mo nai. "Obâ-san, nani ka, Obâ-san!" to Kyô-ko wa naku. Nan to sukashite mo kikanai. "Sore, sore......" to itte, ah, Takuan-zuke!
    Fu-shôkwa-butsu ga itaike na Kyô-ko no Kuchi kara Hara ni haitte, soshite yowai I ya Chô wo itamete iru sama ga Kokoro ni ukanda!
    Nise-byôki wo tsukatte 5 ka mo yasunda no da kara, yo wa ta-sho Shikii no takai yô na Kimochi de Sha ni haitta. Muron nan no Koto mo nakatta. Soshite, Koko ni kite isae sureba, tsumaranu Kangae-goto wo shinaku te mo ii yô de, nan da ka Anshin da. Dô-ji ni, nan no Keirui no nai――Jibun no toru Kane de Jibun hitori wo Shochi sureba yoi Hito tachi ga urayamashikatta.
    Shimbun Jigyô no Kyômi ga, Kôsei no Aima-aima ni Yo wo Shigeki shita. Yo wa Otaru ga Shôrai mottomo Yûbô na Tokwai na koto wo kangaeta; soshite, Otaru ni Shimbun wo okoshite, aran-kagiri no Kwatsudô wo shitara, donna ni Yukwai darô to omotta.
    Bôsô wa hate mo nai! Hakodate no Tsunami...... Kindaichi kun to tomo ni Kabafuto e yuku koto...... Russia-ryô no Hokubu-Kabafuto e itte, iro-iro no Kokuji-hannin ni au koto......
    Kaeri ni Oshi no Onna wo Densha no naka de mita. "Koishikawa" to Techô e kaite, sore wo Shashô ni shimeshite, Norikae-kippu wo moratte ita.
    Imôto――Oya-kyôdai ni wakarete, English-jin no Evance(?) to yû Hito to tomo ni Kongetsu Asahikawa e itta Mitsu-ko kara nagai Tegaim ga kite ita. "......Kono-goro wa Daibu Machi ni mo nare-mashite, shinogi-yasuku nari-mashita. De mo, kô, yawaraka na Haru-biyori wo Mado-goshi ni ukete nado orimasu to, doko mo omoidashi masen ga, tada, Furusato naru Shibutami wo omoi-dashi-masu. Nii-sama ni iitsukerarete, ano Yama-michi no Hô nado, Sumire wo sagashi ni aruki-mashita Tôji no koto wo Tsuikwai itashi-masu. Nî-sama mo aruiwa sono Tôji no Arisama wo Kokoro ni o-tadori ni naru koto ga o-ari ka mo shiremasen! ......Watashi no Tsukue no ue ni kaairashii Fukujusô ga arimasu. Sore wo mite imasu to, Kyô, fu-to Furusato ga omoi-dasarete nari-masen no. Yoku Sumire ya Fukujusô wo sagashi ni, ano hakaba no Hotori wo aruki-mashitakke! ......Soshite, iro-iro na koto wo omoi-dashimasita no. Nî-sama ni shikarareta Mukashi no koto wo omotte wa, atarashiku urande mo mimashita――Yurushite kudasai-mase! Ima wa shikarare-takute mo oyobi-masen!
    "Naze ano toki, amanjite Nî-sama ni shikararetanaktta de shô? Ima ni natte wa sore ga kono ue mo naku kuyashiu gozai-masu. Mô-ichi-do Nî-sama ni shikararete mitakutte! Shikashi mô oyobimasen! ......Jissai Watashi no Kokoro-gake wa machigatte-mashita nê! ......Nî-sama wa Ima Shibutami no tare ka to O-tayori nasutte irassharu no? Watashi, Akihama Kiyo-ko san ni O-tegami dashitai to zonjite ori-masu ga, Hokkaido e maitte kara mada ichi-do mo dashimasen no......
    "Sore kara Watashi-domo nê, 5 gwatsu Nakagoro wa Fujin-kwai ya Shûyô-kwai ga gozaimashite, mata Otaru ya Yoichi hômen e mairi-masu......"
    ......Yo no Me wa kasunda. Kono Kokoro-mochi wo sono mama Imôto ni tsugeta nara, Imôto wa donna ni yorokobu de arô! Genzai no Yo ni, kokoro-yuku bakari ajiwatte yomu Tegami wa, Imôto no sore bakari da: Haha no Tegami, Setsu-ko no Tegami, sorera wa Yo ni wa amari kanashii, amari tsurai. Naru beku nara yomitaku nai to sura omô. Soshite mata, Yo ni wa Izen no yô ni Kokoro to Kokoro no hibiki-au yô na Tegami wo kaku Yûjin ga naku natta. Toki-doki Shôsoku suru Onna――ni-san-nin no wakai Onna no Tegami――sore mo natsukashiku nai Wake de wa nai ga, shikashi sore wa Itsuwari da. ......Imôto! Yo no tada hitori no Imôto! Imôto no Mi ni tsuite no Sekinin wa subete Yo ni aru. Shikamo Yo wa sore wo sukoshi mo hatashite inai. ――Ototoshi no 5 gwatsu no Hajime, Yo wa Shibutami no Gakkô de Strike wo yatte Menshoku ninari, Imôto wa Otaru ni ita Ane no moto ni Yakkai ni naru koto ni nari, Yo mo mata Hokkaidô e itte nani ka yaru tsumori de, issho ni Hakodate made tsuretette yatta. Tsugaru no Umi wa areta. Sono toki Yo wa Fune ni yotte aoku natteru Imôto ni Seishintan nado wo nomashite, Kaihô shite yatta. ――Ah! Yo ga tatta hitori no Imôto ni taishite, Ani rashii koto wo shita no wa, osoraku, sono Toki dake na noda!
    Imôto wa mô nijûni da. Atarimae naraba Muron mô Kekkon shite, kaaii Kodomo demo daiteru beki Toshi da. Sore wo, Imôto wa ima made mo ikutabi ka Jikwatsu no Hôshin wo tateta. Fukô ni shite sore wa Shippai ni owatta: amari ni Ani ni nite iru Fukô na Imôto wa, yahari Genjitsu no Sekai ni atehamaru yô ni dekite inakatta! Saigo ni Imôto wa Kami wo motometa: ina, osorakuwa, Kami ni yotte Shokugyô wo motometa. Mitsu-ko wa, ima, hiyayaka na Gwaikoku-fujin no moto ni yashinawarete, 'Kami no tame' ni hataraite iru: Rainen wa Shiken wo ukete Nagoya no Mission School e hairi, 'Isshô wo Kami ni sasagete' Dendô-fu ni naru to yû!
    Ani ni nita Imôto wa hatashite Shûkyô-ka ni tekishite iru darô ka!
    Seikaku no amari ni chikai tame de gana arô; Yo to Imôto wa chiisai toki kara Naka ga warukatta. Osoraku kono futari no kurai aka no warui Kyôdai wa doko ni mo arumai. Imôto ga Yo ni taishite Imôto rashii Kuchi wo kiita koto wa atta ga, Yo wa mada Imôto ga Ijiko no naka ni ita toki kara, tsui zo Ani rashii Kuchi wo kiita koto wa nai!
    Ah! Sore ni mo kakawarazu, Imôto wa Yo wo urande-nai: mata Mukashi no yô ni shikararete mitai to itteru――sore ga mô dekinai to kanashinderu! Yo wa nakitai!
    Shibutami! Wasuren to shite wasure enu no wa Shibutami da! Shibutami! Shibutami! Ware wo sodate, soshite Hakugai shita Shibutami!......Yo wa nakitai, nakô to shita. Shikashi Namida ga denu!......Sono Shôgai no mottomo Taisetsu na 18 nen no aida wo Shibutami ni okutta Cichi to Haha――kanashii Toshiyori dachi ni wa, sono Shibutami wa amari ni tsuraku itamashii Kioku wo nokoshita. Shinda Ane wa Shibutami ni 3 nen ka 5 ne shika inakatta. Ni-ban-me no Iwamizawa no Ane wa, yasashii Kokoro to tomo ni Shibutami wo wasurete iru: omoidasu koto wo Chijyoku no yô ni kanjite iru. Soshite Setsu-ko wa Morioka ni umareta Onna da. Yo to tomo ni Shibutami wo wasure enu mono wa doko ni aru ka! Hiroi Sekai ni Mitsu-ko hitori da!

    Konya, Yo wa Imôto――aware naru Imôto wo omô no Jô ni taenu. Aitai! Atte Ani rashii Kuchi wo kiite yaritai! Kokoro yuku bakari Shibutami no koto wo kataritai. Futari tomo Yo-no-naka no Tsurasa, Kanashisa, Kurushisa wo shiranak-atta nan-nen no Mukashi ni kaeritai! Nani mo iranu! Imôto yo! Imôto yo! Warera no Ikka ga uchisorôte, tanoshiku Shibutami no Mukashi-banashi wo suru Hi wa hatashite aru darô ka?
    Itsu shika Ame ga furi-dashite, Amadare no Oto ga wabishii. Yo ni shite moshi Chichi――sude ni ichi-nen Tayori mo sezu ni iru Chichi to, Haha to, Mitsu-ko to, sore kara Saishi to wo atsumete, tatoi nan no umai Mono wa naku-tomo, issho ni Bansan wo toru koto ga dekiru nara............
    Kindaichi-kun no Kabafuto-iki wa, Natsu-yasumi dake iku no da sô da. Kyô wa Gengogaku-kwai no Ensoku de Ômiya made itte kita to no koto.


19TH MONDAY

    Geshuku no Gyakutai wa itareri-tsukuseri de aru. Kesa wa 9 ji goro okita. Kao wo aratte kite mo Hibachi ni Hi monai. Hitori de Toko wo ageta. Match de Tabako wo nonde iru to, Kodomo ga Rôka wo yuku: iitsukete Hi to Yu wo morô. 20 pun mo tatte kara Meshi wo motte kita. Shamoji ga nai: Bell wo oshita. Konai. Mata oshita. konai. Yohodo tatte kara O-tsune ga sore wo motte kite, mono-iwazu ni nageru yô ni oite itta. Miso-jiru wa tsumetaku natte iru
    Mado no shita ni Kobu-no-ki no Hana ga saite iru. Mukashi-mukashi, mada Shibutami no Tera ni ita koro, yoku ano Ki no Eda wo kitte wa Paipu wo koshiraeta mono dakke!
    Jochû nado ga Shikkei na Soburi wo suru to, Yo wa itsu demo, 'Hm, ano Chikushô! Ore ga Kane wo minna haratte, soshite, Yatsu-ra ni mo Kane wo kurete yattara, donna Kao wo shite Obekka wo tsukaiyagaru darô!' to omô. Shikashi kangaete miru to, itsu sono Jidai ga Ore ni kuru no da?
    "Kozukai Toyokichi." nochi ni "Sakaushi-kun no Tegami." to Dai wo aratamete kaki-dashita ga, 5 gyô mo kakanu uchi ni 12 ji ninatte, Sha ni dekaketa.
    Kawatta koto nashi. Rô-shôsetsu-ka Mishima-rôjin ga nani ka to Yo ni shitashimitagatteru Yôsu ga omoshiroi. Kyûji no Kobayashi wa, "Anata ga Subaru to yû Zasshi ni Shôsetsu wo okaki ni natta no wa nan-gwatsu desu ka?" to kiite itakke.
    Kaette kite "Sakaushi-kun no Tegami" wo Rôma-ji de kakidashita ga, 10 ji goro ni wa Atama ga tsukarete shimatta.


20TH TUESDAY

    Rôka de Otsune ga nani ka hanashite iru. Sono Aite no Koe wa Yo no imada kiita koto no nai Koe da: hosoi, ui-ui shii Koe da. Mata atarashiku Jochû ga kita na to omotta――Sore wa 7 ji goro no koto――kono Hi Dai-ichi ni Yo no Ishiki noi nobotta Dekigoto wa kore da.
    Utsura-utsura to shite iru to, tare ka shira haitte kita. 'Kitto atarashii Jochû da.'――sô Yume no yô ni omotte, 2, 3 do yuruyaka na Kokyû wo shite kara Me wo sukoshi bakari aite mita. Omotta tôri, 17 gurai no Maru-gao no Onna ga, Hibachi ni Hi wo utsushite iru. 'Osada-san ni nita.' to, sugu Me wo tsuburi nagara, omotta. Osada-san to yû no wa Shibutami no Yûbinkyoku no Musume de atta. Ano koro――36 nen――tashika jûshi datta kara, ima wa jû――jû――sô da, mô hatachi ni natta no da......Doko e O-yome ni itta rô? Sonna koto wo kangae nagara Kanaya Shichirô kun wo omoi-dashita. Soshite uto-uto shita. Sugu mata Me ga sameta――to itte mo Me wo aku hodo sukkari de wa nai. Te araku Shôji wo akete Otsune ga haitte kita: soshite Hibachi no Hi wo motte yuku. Yo ga Me wo aku to,
    "Anata no tokoro e wa ato de motte kimasu."
    "Gyakutai shiyagaru ja nai ka?" to, Yo wa, Mune no naka de dake itta tsumori datta ga, tsui Kuchi ni dete shimatta. Otsune wa Kao-iro wo kaeta: soshite nan to ka itta. Yo wa "mnya, mnya" itte Negaeri wo shita!
    Gozen-chû, Atama ga hakkiri shite ite, "Sakakushi-kun no Tegami." wo 2 mai dake kaita. Soshite Sha ni itta.
    Sakuya Kawasaki no Temae ni Kisha no Tenpuku ga atta node, Shakwai-bu no Hito-dachi wa Tentekomai wo shite iru.
    Reikoku ni kaetta. Ma mo naku Hiraide-kun kara Denwa: Tanka-gô no Genkô no Saisoku da. Iikagen na Henji wo shita ga, hm! tsumaranai, Uta nado! Sô omô to Uchi ni kusubutteru mo tsumaranai to yû Ki ni natte, hitori dekaketa. 5 chôme no Kwatsudo-shashin de 9 ji made ita. Sore kara 1 jikan wa Ate mo naku Densha no naka.

    Kesa, Katakake wo Shichiya ni motte itte 60 sen karita. Soshite Tokoya ni haitte Atama wo 5 bu-gari ni shi, Tenugui to Shabon wo katte, sugu sono Mise no mae no Yuya ni hairô to suru to, "Kyô wa Kensa no Hi dakara 11 ji goro kara de nakute wa Yu ga tatanu." to, sono Mise no Aikyô no aru Kami-san ga oshiete kureta.


21TH(sic) WEDNESDAY

    Sakuya Makura no ue de Tengwai no 'Chôjaboshi' wo sukoshi yonda. Jitsugyô-kai no koto wo kakô to omotte ikkanen-kan Kenkyû shita to yû Taido ga sude ni machigatte iru. Dai-ni-gi no Shôsetsu......ga, kono Sakka wa Kenchikuka no yô na, Jiken wo kumi-tateru ue no osorubeki Giryô wo motte iru. Kûsô no hinjaku-na Sak-ka no oyobu tokoro de nai.
    Sôshiteru tokoro e Kindaichi kun ga, "O-yu ga aru ka." to itte haitte kite, Ueda Bin-shi ga nani ka no Zasshi e 'Shôsetsu wa Bungaku ni arazu.' to yû Ronbun wo dasu sô da to yû Hanashi wo shita. "Sore, go-ran nasai!" to Yo wa itta: "Ano Hito mo tôtô sono Kubetsu wo shinakereba naranaku natte kita. Shi wa Bungaku no mottomo junsui-na mono da to yû Ano Hito no classical na Iken nari Shumi nari wo suteru koto mo dekizu, saritote, Shinbungaku no Kenï wo mitomenu Wake ni ikanaku natte kita. Soko de sonna Ni-gen teki na Kubewtsu wo tatenakucha naranaku natta-nde shô.――"

    Kyô kara 3 gai wa mata O-kiyo-san no Ban da. Hayaku okita.
    Tsui ni Hazakura no koro to wa natta. Mado wo akeru to, keburu yô na Wakaba no Iro ga Me wo shigeki-suru.
    Kinô wa Densha no naka de futari made Natsu-bô wo kabutta Hito wo mita. Natsu da!
    9 ji ni Daimachi no Yuya e itta. Koko wa Kyonen Tôkyô ni kite Sekishinkan ni ita koro, yoku iki-tsuketa Yuya da. Ôkii Sugatami, Kimochi yoki Fummuki, nan no kawari wa nai. Tada ano koro ita 17 bakari no Otoko-zuki rashii Onna ga, Kyô wa Bandai no ue ni inakatta. Ichi-mai-garasu no Mado ni wa Asa no suga-suga-shii Nikkô ni Awoba no Kage ga yurameite ita. Yo wa ichi-nen-zen no Kokoro-mochi ni natta. Sansuke mo Kyonen no Yatsu da......Soshite Yo wa hageshii Tôkyô no Natsu ga sugu Me no mae ni kiteru koto wo kanjita. Sekishinkwan no Hito-natsu! sore wa Yo ga hijô-na Kyûhaku no Chii ni i-nagara mo, sôshite tatoi Hannen no aida de mo Kazoku wo yashinawaneba naranu Sekinin kara nogarete iru no ga ureshikute, sô da! narubeku sore wo kangaenu yô ni shite "Han-dokushin-mono" no Kimochi wo tanoshinde ita Jidai de atta. Sono koro Kwankei shite ita Onna woba, Yo wa Mamo-naku sutete shimatta.――Ima wa Asakusa de Geisha wo shite iru. Iro-iro no koto wa kawatta. Yo wa kono ichi-nen-kan ni iku-nin ka no atarashii Tomo wo e, sô shite suteta......Yo wa, sono koro yori Kenkô ni natta Karada wo sesse to arai-nagara, iro-iro no Tsuikwai ni fuketta.――Ichi-nen-kan no hageshii Tatakai!......And, the dreadful summer is coming again on me――the peniless(sic) novelist! The dreadful summer! alas! with great pains and deep sorrows of phigical(sic) rapture of young Nihilist!
    As I came out of the gate of the bathhouse, the ecpressful faced woman who solled(sic) me the soap yesterday said to me 'Good morning' with something calm and favourable gesture.
    The bath and the memories bring me some hot and young lightness. I am young, and, at last, the life is not so dark and so painful. The sun shines, and the moon is calm. If I do not send the monye, or call up they(sic) to Tôkyô, they――my mother and wife will take other manner to eat. I am young, and young, and young: and I have the pen, the brain, the eyes, the heart and the mind. That is all. All of all. If the inn-master take(sic) me out of this room, I will go everywhere――where are many inns and hotels in this capital. To-day, I have only one piece of 5 rin-dôkwa: but What then? There is nothing. They are writing with their finger-bones and the brud(sic): but I must write with the ink and the G pen! That is all. Ah, the burning summer and the green-coloured struggle!

    Kyô kara Kisha no Jikan-kaisei no tame Dai-ippen no Shimekiri ga hayaku nari, tame ni Dai-nihan no dekiru made iru koto ni natta. Shukkin wa 12 ji, Hike wa 6 ji.
    Yoru, Kindaichi kun no Heya ni Nakamura kun ga kita: itte hanasu. Kono Hito mo Gakkô wo deru to tabun Asahi e hairu yô ni narudarô to no koto.
    Hiraide kara Genkô Saisoku no Denwa.


22TH(sic) THURSDAY

    Sakura hayaku neta node, Kyô wa 6 ji goro ni okita. Soshite Uta wo tsukutta. Hareta Hi ga Gogo ni natte kumotta.
    Yoru, Kindsichi kun to katari, Uta wo tsukuri, 10 ji goro mata Kindaichi kun no Heya e itte, tsukutta Uta wo yonde Ô-warai. San-zan huzake-chirakashite, ô-sawagi wo shi kaette kite neta.


23TH(sic) FRYDAY

    6 ji-han goro ni okite Senmenjo ni iku to, Kindaichi kun ga Benjo de aisatsu sareta to yû 19 ban no Heya no Bijin ga ima shimo Kao wo aratte dete yuku tokoro. Osok-atta Yuranosuke! Sono Onna no tsukatta Kanadarai de Kao wo aratte, 'nanda, Baka na koto wo shiyagaru nâ!' to Kokoro no uchi.
    Uta wo tsukuru. Yo ga Jiyû-jizai ni Kushi suru koto no dekiru no wa Uta bakari ka to omô to ii Kokoromochi de wa nai.
    11 ji goro kara Ame ga furi-dashita, Sha de wa Kimura, Maekawa no Ryô-rôjin ga yasunda no de Dai-ippan no Kôryô made Tabako mo nomenu Isogashisa.
    Kaeru koro kara BAka ni samuku natte kita. Sore ni Hara ga hette iru no de Densha no naka de Hiza-kozô ga furueta. Chûgaku-jidai no Chijin Naganuma-kun ni atta. Nama-shiroi, Ôkina Kao ni, Takabô wo kabutte, ima-fû no Kwaisha-in ka Yakunin-fû no Style wo shite, dô yara Kodomo no ari sô na Ôhei na Yôsu da. Koitsu dôse kuru Yatsu de nai kara to Banchi wo kaite Meishi wo kurete yatta.
    Chikagoro Densha no naka de yoku Mukashi no Chijin ni au. Kinô mo Sukiyabashi de oriru toki, Dekuchi ni chikaku Koshi-kakete ita Kakuobi no Seinen,
    "Shitsurei de su ga Anata wa Morioka ni irashita Ishi――"
    "Sô desu, Ishikawa desu."
    Watshi wa Shibanai――"
    Shibanai Kaoru, ano kaaikata Kodomo! Doko ni iru to kiitara, Akasaka no Tada――moto no Morioka-chûgaku no Kôchô――no Uchi ni iru to itta. Kotchi no Jûsho wa oshieru Hima mo naku Yo wa orite shimatta.
    Kindaichi kun wa shikiri ni Asu no Lecture no Sôkô wo tsukutte iru rashii. Yo wa kaette kite Meshi ga sumu to sugu torikakatte Uta wo tsukuri hajimeta. Kono aida kara no Bun wo awasete, 12 ji goro made kakatte 70 shu ni shite, "莫復問七十首" to Dai-shite kokoro yoku neta. Nani ni kakgirazu ichi-nichi Hima naku Shigoto wo shita ato no Kokoromochi wa tatôru mono mo naku tanoshii. Jinsei no Shin no fukai Imi wa kedashi Koko ni aru no darô!


24TH SATURDAY

    Hareta Hi de wa atta ga Kita-kaze wa fuite, Kandankei wa 62 do 8 bu ni shika noboranakatta.
    'Subaru' no Boshû no Uta "Aki" 698 shu uchi kara, Gozen no uchi ni 40 shu dake eranda. Sha ni iku toki sore to Sakuya no "Bakufumon 70 shu." to wo Hiraide kun no tokoro ni oite itta.
    Kyô no Kiji no naka ni Renshû-kantai Taiheiyô-ôdan no Tsûshin ga atte, sono naka ni, Shunki-kôreisai no Asa, Kanïn mina Kanpan ni dete Nishi no Sora wo nozonde Kôrei wo haishita to yû tokoro ga atta. Mimi no kikenai Rô-shôsetsu-ka no Mishima-jiisan, "Nishi no Sora de wa Nippon no Hôkaku de wa nai" to itte Gwan to shite kikanakatta. Sore kara Maekawa-jiisan wa Kinô Mudan-kekkin shita to yû no de, Katô "Round-eyes" to Kenkwa wo shite itakke. Kono Hito wa Yo no Chichi ni nita Hito na no da.
    Sukoshi osoku natte kaetta. Tsukue no ue ni wa Genkôshi no ue ni Tegami rashii mono――Mune wo odorashite Dentô no Neji wo hineru to, sore wa Sapporo no Tachibana Chie-ko san kara――! Taiin no shirase no Hagaki wo moratte kara Yo wa mada Henji wo dasazu ni itatta no da.
    "Hakodate nite ome-ni-kakarishi wa Wazuka no aida ni sôraishi ga O-wasure mo naku O-tegami......o-ureshiku"――to kaite aru. "Kono goro wa Soto wo Sanpo suru kurai ni ai-nari sôrô." to kaite aru. "Mukashi shinobare sôrô" to kaite aru. Soshite, "O-hima araba Hagaki nari to mo――" to kaite aru.
    Kindaichi kun ga haitte kita. Kyô no Lecture no Seiseki ga yokatta to miete niko-niko shite iru. Hanashi wa iro-iro de atta ga, Tomo no Me no Yo ni kataru tokoro wa, "Sôsaku wo yare." to yû koto de atta. "Sokuseki no ato wo kake." to itta. Soshite 1 ka-getsu-zen no Yo no Kôfun-jidai wo katatte sono Me wa Yo no Genzai no fukaki Kyômi wo ushinatta Kimochi wo semuru gotoku de atta. Yo wa itta:
    "Da ga, Kindaichi san, Ore datte sugu Anata no Kibô ni soitai......ga, Ore ni wa ima Teki ga nakunatta! Dô mo Hariai ga nai."
    "Teki! Sô desu nê!"
    Ano koro no Teki wa Ôta-kun datta. Jissai desu."
    "Sô deshita nê!"
    "Ôta to Ore no Torihiki wa angwai hayaku owatte shimatta.
        'Nigen, Nigen, nao tokiezuba Sangen wo tatsuru
        Ikigomi, kashikoki Tomo kana.'
    Watashi wa kono Uta wo tsukuru toki dare wo omoi-ukabeta to omoi masu? Ueda san to, sore kara Ôta-kun desu. Mada kono hoka ni mo Ôta ni taisuru Shisô-jô no Zekkô-jô wo Imi suru Uta wo mitsu yotsu tsukuri mashita yo."
    "Tsumari, mô Ôta-kun wo suteta'-n desu ka?"
    "Teki de wa naku nattandesu. Dakara Ore wa kô Gakkari shite shimattan-desu. Teki! Teki! Authority no nai Jidai ni wa tsuyoi Teki ga nakuchâ Dame desu yo. Soko e yuku to Doppo nanka wa erai, jitsu ni erai."
    Konna Hanashi mo, shikashi Yo no Shinzô ni sukoshi no Kodô wo mo okosanakatta.


25TH SUNDAY

    Yo no Genzai no Kyômi wa tada hitotsu aru: sore wa Sha ni itte 2 jikan mo 3 jikan mo Iki mo tsukazu ni Kôsei suru koto da. Te ga aku to Atama ga nan to naku Kûkyo wo kanzuru: Jikan ga nagaku nomi omoeru. Hajime Yo no Kokoro wo odori-tatashita Rintenki no Hibiki mo, ima de wa narete shimatte tsuyoku wa mimi ni hibikanai. Kesa kono koto wo kangaete kanashiku natta.
    Yo wa subete no mono ni Kyômi wo ushinatte iki-tsutsu aru no de wa aru mai ka? Subete ni Kyômi wo ushinau to yû koto wa, sunawachi Subete kara ushinawareru to yû koto da.
    "I have had lost from everything!" Kô yû Jiki ga moshi Yo ni kitara!
    "Kake-ashi wo shite Iki ga kireta no da. Ore wa ima Nami-ashi de aruite iru." to Yo wa Sakuban Tomo ni katatta.
    Kyô wa Hôhei-kôshô no Dai-entotsu ga Kemuri wo haite inai.

    Sha ni itte Gekkyû wo uketotta. Genkin shichi-yen to 18 yen no Zenshaku-shô. Sengetsu wa 25 yen no Kao wo mita dake de Satô san ni kaeshite shimai, kekkyoku 1 mon mo motte kaeru koto ga dekinakatta ga......
    Nichi-yô da kara Dai-ippan dake de Yo wa kaetta. Soshite 4 ji goro Surugadai no Yosano-si wo tazuneta. Shunjin wa Haiyû-yôseijo no Shibai wo mi ni itte Rusu datta ga, Nikai de Aki-ko san to hanashite iru to Yoshii kun ga kita. Hirayama Yoshi-ko no hanashi ga deta.
    Aki-ko san wa, Kondo no Tanka-gô ni dasu Yosano-si no Uta wa Butsugi wo kamoshi sô da to yû. Dô shite desu to yû to,
    "Konaida futari de Kenkwa shitan-desu yo. Uchi ga, Anata, Nanase bakkari kaaigatte Yatsuo wo, dô shite nandesu ka, taisô ijimeru-nde gozai-masu yo. Anmari ijimeru mondesu kara masu-masu Shinkei ga yowatte naku mondesu kara ne, konaida 1 shûkan dake shikaranai Yakusoku shite morattandesu ga, sore wo nê, mata pisha-pisha Kao wo butsu mondesu kara, Watashi sonna ni Kodomo wo ijimerareru nara Uchi e kaeri-masu to yû to okorimashite nê. Sore wo kondo no Uta ni tsukutta-nde gozai-masu-no. 'Tsuma ni suterareta' to ka nan to ka iron na-no ga ari-masu yo."
    Ha, ha, ha! Sô desu ka."
    "Sore kara, anô, Yamakawa-san ga o-nakunari ni nari-mashita yo."
    "Yamakawa-san ga......!"
    "Eh,......Kongetsu no 15 nichi ni......"
    Hakukô naru Jo-shijin Yamakawa Tomi-ko Joshi wa tsui ni shinda no ka?!
    ............!
    Yosano-shi ga kaette kite Ma mo naku Yo wa jishita. Nani yara no Hanashi no tsuzuki de "Ha, ha, ha," to warai nagara Soto ni deta Yo wa, ni-san-po aruite "tche'" to Shitauchi shita. "Yoshi! Krera to Boku to wa chigatteru no da. Fun! mite iyagare, Bakayarô-me!"
    Densha no 20 kwai-ken wo katta.
    Atama ga sukoshi itai. Kindaichi-kun wo sasotte Sanpo ni dekaketa. Hongô 3 chôme de,
    "Doko e iki-masu?"
    "Sô!"
    Skamoto-yuki no Norikae-kippu wo kirasete Yoshiwara e itta. Kindaichi kun ni wa ni-dome ka san-dome da ga, Yo wa umarete hajimete kono Fuyajô ni Ashi wo ireta. Shikashi omotta yori hiroku mo naku, tamageru hodo no koto mo nakatta. Kuruwa no naka wo hito-meguri mawatta. Sasuga ni utsukushii ni wa utsukushii.
    Kadoebi no Ô-dokei ga 10 ji wo utte Ma mo naku Yo-ra wa sono Hana no yô na Kuruwa wo dete, Kuruma de Asakusa made kita. Tôkaen wo arukô ka to iidashita ga, futari tomo Kyômi ga nakunatte ita no de, soshite, Baka ni Kûfuku wo kanjite ita no de, to-aru Gyûniku-ya ni agatte Meshi wo kutta. Sô shite 12 ji sukoshi sugi ni kaette kita.
    "Yoru Me wo samasu to, Amadare no Oto ga nan-da ka Rinshitsu no Sazame-goto no yô de, utsukushii Hito ga Makura-moto ni iru yô na......Hyôbyô taru Kokochi ni naru koto ga aru." to yû yô na koto wo Kindaichi kun ga ii-dashita.
    "Hyôbyô taru Kokochi!" to Yo wa itta. "Watashi wa wakaranai!"
    Tomo wa mata, "Watashi mo itsu ka zehi, asoko e itte mitai." to yû yô na koto wo itta.
    "Ôi ni ii" to Yo wa itta. "Itta hô ga ii desu yo. Soshite Kekkon shitara dô desu?"
    "Aite sae areba itsu demo. Daga Kekkon shitara anna tokoro e ikanakutemo ii ka mo shire masen ne!"
    "Sô ja nai. Boku wa Yappari itta hô ga ii to omô.
    "Sô desu nê!"
    "Nan desu nê, Asakusa wa, iwaba, Tan ni Nikuyoku no Manzoku wo uru tokoro da kara, Aite ga tsumari wa donna Yatsu de mo kamawanai ga, Yoshiwara nara Boku wa yahari utsukushii Onna to netai. Asoko ni wa Rekishiteki Rensô ga aru, ittai ga Bijutsu-teki da.......Kwabi wo tsukushita Heya no naka de, moe-tatsu yô na Momi-ura no, neru to Karada ga shizumu yô na Futon ni nete, Rantô Kage komayaka naru tokoro, Hyôbyô taru Kimochi kara fu' to Me wo aku to, Makura-moto ni utsukushii Onna ga Gyôgi yoku suwatte iru......ii ja ari-masenka?"
    "Ah, tamaranaku naru!"
    "Yoshiwara e ittara Bijin de nakyâ ikemasen yo. Asakusa nara mata nan demo kan demo Nikutai no Hatsuiku no ii, Organ no Kwanzen na Yatsu de nakuchâ ikenai......"
    Futari wa 1 jikan chikaku mo sono 'Hyôbyô taru Kimochi' ya, Morioka no aru Jogakusei de Yoshiwara ni iru to yû Kuji nanigashi no koto wo katatte neta.


26TH MONDAY

    Me wo samasu to Hibachi no Hi ga kiete ita. Atama no naka ga jime-jime shimette iru yô na Kokoro-mochi datta.
    Nan to ka shite akarui Kibun ni naritai to yû yô na koto wo kangaete iru tokoro e Namiki kun no Hagaki ga tsuita.
    Sore wo miru to Yo no Atama wa sukkari kuraku, tsumetaku, shimeri-kaette shimatta. Karite Shichi ni irete aru Tokei wo Kongetsu-chû ni kaeshite kure-mai ka to ŷu Hagaki da.
    Ah! Kesa hodo Yo no Kokoro ni Shi to yû Mondai ga chokusetsu ni sematta koto ga nakatta. Kyô Sha ni ikô ka ikumai ka......iya, iya, sore yori mo mazu shinô ka shinumai ka?......Sô da, kono Heya de wa ikenai. Ikô, doko kae ikô......
    Yu ni ikô to yû Kangae ga okotta. Sore wa Jibun nagara kono Fuyukwai na Kibun ni taerarenakatta no da: sen-jitsu itta-toki no ii Kimochi ga omoi-dasareta no da. To ni Kaku Yu ni ikô. Soshite kara kangaeru koto ni shiyô. Soshite Yo wa Daimachi no Yuya ni itta. Sono toki made wa mattaku shinu tsumori de ita no da.
    Yu no naka wa Kimochi ga ii. Yo wa dekiru dake nagaku soko ni iyô to omotta. Koko sae dereba osoroshii Mondai ga machi-kamaeteite, Sugu ni mo shinu ka nani ka seneba naranu yô de, atatakai Yu ni tsukatte iru aida dake ga Jibun no Karada na yô na Ki ga shita. Yo wa nagaku iyô to shita. Shikashi angwai ni hayaku Karada mo arawasatte shimô. Dô shiyô! agarô ka? sore tomo mosukoshi haitte iyô ka? agattara ittai doko ni ikô?
    Garasu-do goshi ni Bandai no Onna ga mieru. Sore wa Kyonen kono Yu ni yoku itta koro ita Musume, kono aida itta toki wa dô shita no ka mienakatta. Hana no hikui, shikashi nagara, Kesshoku no ii, Otoko-zuki rashii Marugao no Onna de atta ga, kono ichi-nen tarazu no aida ni Hito ga kawatta ka to mieru kurai futotte iru. Musume zakari no Hi no yô na Appaku ni Karada ga uzuite iru yô ni mieru...... Kono Onna no Nikutai no Henkwa wa Yo wo shite iro-iro no Kûsô wo okosashimeta.
    De-yô ka de-mai ka to kangaete iru to――shinô ka shinu mai ka to yû Mondai ga, deyô ka demai ka no Mondai ni utsutte, koko ni Yo no Shinriteki-jôtai ga henkwa-shita. Mizu wo kabutte agatta toki, Yo no Kokoro wa yohodo karokatta. Soshite Tairyô wo hakaru to 12 kwan 200 me atta. Senjitsu yori 400 me fuete iru.
    Tabako ni Hi wo tsukete Yuya wo deru to, Yu-agari no Hada ni Kûki ga kokochi-yoku sawaru. Kaku no da! to yû Ki ga okotta. Soshite Matsuya e itte Genkô-shi wo katta.
    Heya e kaette Ma mo naku Miyazaki kun no Tegami ga tsuita.
    Yo wa......! Miyazaki kun wa, 6 gwatsu ni nattara Yo no Kazoku wo Tôkyô ni yokoshite kureru to yû. Ryohi mo nani mo shinpai shinakute mo ii to yû......
    Kyô, Yo wa mattaku Jibun no Kibun wo akaruku shiyô-shiyô to yû koto bakari ni tsutomete Hi wo okutta yô na mono da.Atama ga sukoshi itakutte ya-ya mo suruto Sekai ga kuraku naru yô na Ki ga shita.
    Sha kara kaette kite Meshi wo kutte iru to Kindaichi kun ga kita. Yahari Benkyô shitaku nai Ban da to yû.
    "Konya dake asobô!"
    Soshite futari wa 8 ji goro Uchi wo dete, doko e ikô to mo iwazu ni Asakusa e itta. Denkikwan no Kwatsudo-shashin mita ga Kyô nai no de Ma mo naku dete, soshite 'Tôkaen' wo aruita. Naze ka utsukushii Onna ga takusan Me ni tsuita. To-aru tokoro e hippari-komareta ga, soko kara wa sugu ni nigeta: soshite mata Betsu no tokoro e hairu to, 'Gesture' ni tonda Onna ga shikiri ni nani ka ogotte kure to yû. 'Yasuke' wo kutta.
    'Shinmatsu-midori!' Sore wa itsu ka Kitahara to haitte Sake wo nonda tokoro da. Futari wa 10 ji han goro ni soko e haitta. Tama-ko to yû Onna wa Yo no Kao ni Mioboe ga aru to itta. Utsukushikute, soshite Hin no aru (Kotoba mo) Onna da. Sono Onna ga shikiri ni sono Kyôgû ni tsuite no Fuhei to Okami no Hidoi koto to, Jibun no Mi no ue to wo katatta. Yo wa Kabe ni kakete aru Samisen no Ito wo Tsume de hajiki, hate wa sore wo tori oroshite odoketa Mane wo shita. Naze sonna Mane wo shita ka? Yo wa ukarete ita no ka?
    Ina! Yo wa nan to yû koto mo naku waga Mi no okidokoro ga Sekai-jû ni nakunatta yô na Kimochi ni osowarete ita. "Atama ga itai kara Konya dake asobô!" Sore wa Uso ni chigai nai. Snnara nani wo Yo wa motomete ita rô? Onna no Niku ka? Sake ka? Osoraku sô dewa nai! Sonnara nani ka? Jibun ni mo wakaranu!
    Jiishiki wa Yo no Kokoro wo fukai fukai tokoro e tsurete iku. Yo wa sono osoroshii Fukami e shizunde ikitaku nakatta. Uchi e wa kaeri taku nai: nani ka iya na Koto ga Yo wo matteru yô da. Soshite Hongô ga Baka ni tôi tokoro no yô de, kaette iku no ga Okkû da. Sonnara dô suru? Dô mo shiyô ga nai. Mi no Oki-dokoro no nai to yû Kanji wa, Yo wo shite Itazura ni Baka na Mane wo seshimeta.
    "Watashi, Raigetsu no 5 ka ni koko wo demasu wa." to Tama-ko ga kanashi sô na Kao wo shite itta.
    "Deru sa! Deyô to omottara sugu deru ni kagiru."
    "Demo Shakkin ga arimasu mono."
    "Ikura?"
    "Hairu toki 40 yen de shita ga, sore ga Anta, dandan tsumotte 100 yen ni mo natterunde gozai-masu wa. Kimono datte ichi-mai mo koshirae wa shinain desu keredo......"
    Yo wa mô taerarenaku naru yô na Ki ga shita. Naku ka, Jôdan wo yû ka, hoka ni Shikata ga nai yô na Kimochi da. Shikashi Yo wa sono toki Jôdan mo ienakatta: muron nakenakatta.
    Chôba de wa Tama-chan no Warukuchi wo itteru Okami no koe. Soto ni wa gebita Naniwa-bushi to, Hyôkin na Hiyakashi-kyaku no koe to, Kûkyo na tokoro kara deru yô na Onna-geinin no Uta no Fushi!
    "Ukiyo-kôji! ne!" to Yo wa Kindaichi kun ni itta.
    Sake wo meijita. Soshite Yo wa 3 bai gui-gui to tsuzuke-zama ni nonda. Ei wa tachimachi hashitta. Yo no Kokoro wa kurai Fuchi e ochite yuku-mai to shite yameru Tori mo Habataki suru yô ni mogaite ita.
    Iya na Okami ga kita. Yo wa 2 yen dashita. Soshite Rinshitsu ni itte oen to yû Onna to 5 fun-kan bakari neta. Tama-chan ga Mukai ni kite sen no Heya ni itta toki wa, Kindaichi kun wa Yoko ni natte ita. Yo wa Mono wo iitaku nai yô na Kimochi datta....... Tôtô Fuchi e ochita to yû yô na!......!
    Deta. Densha wa Kurumazaka made shika nakatta. Futari wa Ikenohata kara aruite kaetta. Yo wa Tomo ni yori-kakari nagara ii-gataki Kanashimi no Michi wo aruku yô na Kimochi: Yotte mo ita.
    "Sake wo nonde naku Hito ga aru, Boku wa Konya sono Kimochi ga wakatta yô na Kimochi ga suru."
    "Ah!"
    "Uchi e ittara Boku wo daite nete kure masen ka?"
    Futari wa Ikwa-Daigaku no yoko no Kurayami wo 'Aoi Ko' no Hanashi wo shinagara aruita.
    Kaette kite Mon wo tataku toki, Yo wa Jibun no Mune wo tataite iya na Oto wo kikuyô na Ki ga shita.


27TH TUESDAY

    Ha' to odoroite Me wo samasu to Makura-moto ni O-kiyo ga tatte ita. Naki tai kurai nemui no wo Gaman shite hane-okita.
    Kumotta Hi.
    Sakuya no koto ga tsumabiraka ni omoidasareta. Yo ga O-en to yû Onna to neta no mo Jijitsu da: sono toki nan no Yukwai wo mo kanjinak-atta no mo Jijitsu da. Futatabi Yo ga ano Heya ni haitte itta toki, Tama-chan no Hô ni kasuka ni Kurenai wo chô-shite ita no mo Jijitsu da. Soshite Kindaichi kun ga Kaeri no Michisugara, tsui ni ano Onna to nezu, tada umarete hajimete Onna to Kiss shita dake da to itta no mo Jijitsu da. Sono Michisugara, Yo wa hijô ni hyotta yô na Furi wo shite, osoi-kuru osoroshii Kanashimi kara nigete ita no mo Jijitsu nareba, sono Kokoro no Soko no narubeku Te wo furezu ni sô' to shite okitakatta Kanashimi ga, 3 yen no Kane wo munashiku tsukatta to yû koto de atta no mo Jijitsu da.
    Soshite Kesa yo wa, Kongo kesshite Onna no tame ni Kane to Jikan to wo tsuiyasu-mai to omotta. Tsumari Kamen da.

    Sha ni itte mo 4 ji goro made Yo wa nani to naku Fuan wo kanjite ita. Sore wa Raigetsu-bun no 25 yen wo Zenshaku shiyô-shiyô to omotte, Shita made iki nagara iidashi-kanete ita kara da. 4 ji ni wa Sha no Kinko ga shimaru. Kan, kan......to Atama no ue no Tokei ga 4 ji wo utta toki, Yo wa ho' to Iki wo tsuite Anshin shita.

    Genkô-shi wo nobete Kokoro wo shizumete iru to Mado-garasu ni chirari to akai Kage ga utsutta, to dôji ni Hanshô no Oto. 8 ji goro de atta. Mado kara Mamukai no Koishikawa ni Kwaji ga okotta no da. Hi wa Ikioi yoku moe, doko to naku Machi no Soko ga sawagashiku natta. Hi! Yo wa chikagoro ni nai kokoroyoi mono wo miru yô ni Mado wo akehanashite nagameta.
    9 ji-han goro Denwa-guchi e yobidasareta. Aite wa Kindaichi kun, Nakajima kun-ra to Nihonbashi no Shôkwatei to yû Ryôriya ni kite iru ga, konai ka to yû. Sassoku dekaketa.
    40 pun mo Densha ni yurarete mezasu Uchi ni yuku to, Otoko yo-nin ni wakai Geisha hitori, Hana no Uchiyama kun ga Gara ni nai Koe wo dashite Shinnai ka nani ka wo utatte ita.
    Ichi-jikan bakari tatte soko wo de, Kindaichi kun to futari Densha ni notte kaette kita.


28TH WEDNESDAY

    Gake-shita no Ie de wa Nobori wo tateta. Wakaba no Kaze ga Kazaguruma wo mawashi, Koi to Fuki-nagashi wo Ha-zakura no ue ni oyogasete iru.
    Hayaku okite, Azabu Kasumichô ni Statô-shi wo tazune, Raigetsu-bun no Gekkyû Zenshaku no koto wo tanonda. Kongetsu wa dame da kara Raigetsu no hajime made matte kure to no koto de atta. Densha no Ôhuku, doko mo kashiko mo Wakaba no iro ga Me wo iru. Natsu da!
    Sha ni itte nan no kawatta koto nashi. Sakuya Saigo no ichi-yen wo Fui no Enkwai ni tsukatte shimatte, Kyô wa mata Saifu no naka ni hishageta 5 rin Dôkwa ga ichi-mai. Asu no Densha-chin mo nai.


29TH THURSDAY

    Yasumu koto ni shita. Soshite Shôsetsu "底" wo kaki hajimeta.
    12 ji sugite mo dekake nai no de Kindaichi kun ga kita:
    "Anata, Densha-chin ga nakutte o-dekake ni naranai no ja arimasen ka?"
    "Iie, Sore mo sô desu ga......yurushite kudasai. Kyô wa Baka ni Kyô ga waite kitan desu."
    Sô desu ka! Son nara Sekkaku."
    Kô itte Tomo wa dete itta.
    Gogo 2 jikan bakari Satô Isen ni Jama sareta hoka, Yo wa Yasumi naku Pen wo ugokashita.
    Soshite yoru wa Kindaichi kun no Heya de okutta.


30TH FRYDAY

    Kyô wa Sha ni itte mo Tabako-dai ga haraenu. Zenshaku wa Asu ni naranakute wa Dame da. Uchi ni iru to Misoka da kara Shita kara no Danpan ga kowai. Dô shiyô ka to mayotta sue, yahari yasumu koto ni shita.
    "底" wo Dai 3 kwai made kaita.
    Kono goro Sumi-chan to yû, Se no hikui Onna no Ko ga kita. Toshi wa 17 da to yû ga, Karada wa 14 gurai ni shika mienu. Kono Onna ga Sakuya chotto Uchi e itte Haha-oya ni shikarare, Ani ni nan to ka iwarete tobi-dashi, Shinu tsumori de Shinagawa no Kaigan made itta ga, tô-tô shinazu ni hitori kaette kita to yû. Koko made kita toki wa 3 ji han goro datta to yû.
    Osoroshii Ishi no tsuyoi, komashakureta, sono kuse kaaii Onna da. "O-kiyo san wa kaaii Koe ne." to Jibun yori Toshi-ue no Jochû no koto wo yû. "Sore nan dakke――O-tsune san ka! ano Hito no Kao wa konna Fû da wa ne." to Hyottoko no Mane wo shite miseru.
    Yoru ni naru to hatashite Saisoku ga kita. Asu no Ban made mataseru koto ni suru.
    9 ji goro Kindaichi kun ga 2 yen 50 sen kashite kureta. Sono toki kara Kyô ga satta. Nete, Makura no ue de, Futabatei yaku no Turgenef no "Rudin" wo yomu.
    Fukai Kangai wo idaite nemutta.


MAY

TOKYO    

1TH(sic) SATURDAY

    Kinô wa ichi-nichi Nuka no yô na Ame ga futte ita ga, Kyô wa Kirei ni harete, Hisashi-buri ni Fuji wo nagameta. Kita no Kaze de sukoshi samui.
    Gozen wa "Rudin. 浮草." wo yonde kurashita. Ah! Rudin! Rudin no Seikaku ni tsute kangaeru koto wa, sunahachi Yo-jishin ga kono Yo ni nani mo okoshi enu Otoko de aru to yû koto wo Shômei suru koto de aru......
    Sha ni iku to Satô-shi wa Yasumi: Katô Kôseichô wa nan de ka mukunda yô na Kao wo shite ita. Waza to Kinô yasun da Iiwake wo iwazu ni Yo mo damatte ite yatta.
    Zenshaku wa Shubi yoku itte 25 yen karita. Kongetsu wa kore de mô toru tokoro ga nai. Sengetsu no Tabako-dai 160 sen wo haratta.
    6 ji han ni Sha wo deta. Gozen ni Namiki kun ga kite Rei no Tokei no Hanashi ga atta node, sono 25 yen no Kane wo dô Shobun sureba ii ka――Tokei wo ukeru to Yado ni yaru no ga taranaku nari, Yado ni 20 yen yareba Tokei wa dame da――kono Samatsu na Mondai ga Atama ippai ni hadakatte yôi ni Ketsumatsu ga tsukanai. Jissai kono Samatsu na Mondai wa shinô ka shinumai ka to yû koto wo kessuru yori mo Yo no Atama ni Konnan wo kanjisaseta. To ni Kaku kore wo kimenakereba Uchi e kaerenai.
    Owarichô kara Densha ni notta. Sore wa Sasakusa-yuki de atta.
    "O-norikae wa?"
    "Nashi."
    Kô kotaete, Yo wa "mata iku no ka?" to Jibun ni itta.
    Kaminari-mon de orite, soko no Gyû-ya e agatte Yû-meshi wo kutta. Sore kara Kwatsudô-shashin e haitta ga, chi'to mo omoshiroku nai. "Subaru Tanka-gô" wo Zasshi-ya de katta.
    "Iku na! iku na!" to omoi nagara Ashi wa Senzoku-machi e mukatta. Hitachi-ya no mae wo so' to sugite, Kinkwatei to yû atarashii Kado no Uchi no mae e yuku to Shiroi Te ga Kôshi no aida kara dete Yo no Sode wo toraeta. Fura-fura to shite haitta.
    Ah, sono Onna wa! Na wa Hana-ko, Toshi wa 17. Hitome mite Yo wa sugu sô omotta:
    "Ah! Koyakko da! Koyakko wo futatsu mitsu wakakushita Kao da!
    Hodo naku shite Yo wa, O-kwashi-uri no usu-gitanai Bâsan to tomo ni, soko wo deta. Soshite hôbô hippari-mawasarete no ageku, Senzoku Shôgakkô no Urate no takai Rengwa-bei no shita e deta. Hosoi Kôji no Ryôgawa wa To wo shimeta Ura-nagaya de, Hito-dôri wa wasurete shimatta yô ni nai: Tsuki ga tette iru.
    "Ukiyo-kôji no Oku e kita!" to Yo wa omotta.
    "Koko ni mattete kudasai. Watashi wa ima To wo akete kuru kara." to Bâsan ga itta. Nan da ka kyoro-kyoro shite iru. Junsa wo osorete iru no da.
    Shinda yô na Hito-mune no Nagaya no, tottsuki no Uchi no To wo shizuka ni akete, Bâsan wa sukoshi modotte kite Yo wo Tsuki-kage ni Ko-temanegi shita.
    Bâsan wa Yo wo sono Kimi warui Uchi no naka e ireru to, "Watashi wa sokoira de Hari-ban shite imasu kara." to itte dete itta.
    Hana-ko wa Yo yori mo Saki ni kite ite, Yo ga agaru ya ina ya, ikinari Yo ni daki-tsuita.
    Semai, kitanai Uchi da. Yoku mo minakatta ga, Kabe wa kuroku, Tatami wa kusarete, Yane-ura ga mieta. Sono misuborashii arisama wo, Nagashibachi no Neko-ita no ue ni notte iru Mame-ranpu ga obotsukanage ni terashite ita. Furui Tokei ga monouge ni natte iru.
    Susubita Hedate no Shôji no kage no, 2 jô bakari no semai Heya ni hairu to, Toko ga shiite atta――Sukoshi waratte mo Shôji ga kata-kata natte ugoku.
    Kasuka na Akari ni ji' to Onna no Kao wo miru to, marui, shiroi, Koyakko sono mama no Kao ga usu-kurai naka ni pô' to ukande mieru. Yo wa Me mo hosoku naru hodo uttori to shita Kokochi ni natte shimatta.
    "Koyakko ni nita, jitsu ni nita!" to, ikutabi ka onaji Koto bakari Yo no Kokoro wa sasayaita.
    "Ah! konna ni Kami ga kowareta. Iya yo, sonna ni Watashi no Kao bakari michâ!" to Onna wa itta.
    Wakai Onna no Hada wa torokeru bakari atatakai. Rinshitsu no Tokei wa kata'-kata' to natte iru.
    "Mô tsukarete?"
    Bâsan ga shizuka ni Uchi ni haitta Oto ga shite, sore nari Oto ga shinai.
    "Bâsan wa dô shita?"
    "Daidokoro ni kaganderu wa: kitto."
    "Kaai sô da ne."
    "Kamawanai wa."
    "Datte, kaai sô da!"
    "Soryâ kaai sô ni wa kaai sô yo. Honto no Hitori-mono nan desu mono."
    "Omae mo Toshi wo toru to aa naru."
    "Iya, Watashi!"
    Soshite shibaraku tatsu to, Onna wa mata, "Iya yo, sonna ni Atashi no Ko bakari michâ."
    "Yoku niteru."
    "Donata ni?"
    "Orore no imôto ni."
    "Ma, ureshii!" to itte Hana-ko wa Yo no Mune ni Kao wo uzumeta.
    Fushigi na Ban de atta. Yo wa ima made iku-tabi ka Onna to neta. Shikashi nagara Yo no Kokoro wa itsu mo nani mono ka ni ottaterarete iru yô de, ira-ira shite ita, Jibun de Jibun wo azawaratte ita. Konya no yô ni Me mo hosoku naru yô na uttori to shita, Hyôbyô to shita Kimochi no shita koto wa nai. Yo wa nani goto wo mo kangaenakatta: tada uttori to shite, Onna no Hada no Atatakasa ni Jibun no Karada made attamatte kuru yô ni oboeta. Soshite mata, chikagoro wa itazura ni Fuyukwai no Kan wo nokosu ni suginu Kôsetsu ga, kono Ban wa 2 do tomo kokoro-yoku nomi sugita. Soshite Yo wa ato made mo nan no Iya na Kimochi wo nokosanakatta.
    1 jikan tatta. Yume no 1 jikan ga tatta. Yo mo Onna mo okite Tabako wo sutta.
    "Ne, koko kara dete Hidari e magatte futatsu-me no Yokochô no tokoro de matterasshai!" to Onna wa sasayaita.
    Shin to shita Ukiyo-kôji no Oku, Tsukikage Mizu no gotoki Suidô no Waki ni tatte iru to, yagate Onna ga Kôji no usugurai Kata-gawa wo Geta no Oto karoku kakete kita. Futari wa narande aruita. Toki-doki Soba e yotte kite wa, "Honto ni mata irasshai, ne!"

    Yado ni kaetta no wa 12 ji de atta. Fusigi ni Yo wa nan no Kôkwai no nen mo okosanakatta. 'Hyôbyô taru Kicmodhi' ga shite ita.
    Hi mo naku, Toko mo shiite nai. Sono mama nete shimatta.


2TH(sic) SUNDAY

    O-take ga kite okoshita. "Ano ne, Ishikawa san, Danna ga ima o-dekake ni naru tokoro de, dô deshô ka, kiite koitte!"
    "A-a, sô da. Yûbe wa ammari osokatta kara sono mama neta." to ii nagara, Yo wa nemui Me wo kosuri nagara Saifu wo dashite 20 yen dake yatta. "Ato wa mata 10 ka goro made ni."
    "Sô desu ka!" to O-take wa hiyayaka na, shikashi kashiko sô na Me wo shite itta. "Sonnara Anata sono koto wo Go-jibun de Chôba ni osshatte kudasai masen ka? Watashi domo wa tada mô shikararete bakari imasu kara."
    Yo wa sono mama Negaeri wo utte shimatta. "A-a, Yûbe wa omoshirokatta!"
    9 ji goro de atta: chiisai Jochû ga kite, "Iwamoto san to yû kata ga oide ninarimashita." to yû. Iwamoto! Hate na?
    Okite Toko wo agete, yobiireru to hatashite sore wa Shibutami no Yakuba no Joyaku no Musuko――Minoru kun de atta. Yado wo onashiku shita to yû Tokushima-ken umare no ichi-Seinen wo tsurete kita.
    Minoru kun wa Yokohama ni iru Oba san wo tayotte kita no da ga, 2 shû-kan oite moratta nochi, Kuni made o Ryohi wo kurete dasareta no da to yû. Sore de, Kuni e wa kaeritaku naku, zehi Tôkyô de nani ka Shoku ni tsuku tsumori de 3 ka mae ni Kanda no to aru adoya ni tsuta ga, Kyô made yo no Jûsho ga shirenu no de Kushin shita to yû. Mo-hitori no Shimizu to yû hô wa, kore mo yahari Uchi to kenkwa-shite tobi-dashite kita to no koto.
    Natsu no Mushi wa Hi ni mayotte tobi-konde shinu. Kono Hito tachi mo Tokwai toyû mono ni Genwaku sarete nani mo shirazu ni tobi-konde kita Hito tachi da: yagate yake-shinu ka, nige-dasu ka, futatsu ni hitotsu wa manukaremai. Yo wa iyô naru Kanashimi wo oboeta.
    Yo wa sono Mubô ni tsuite nan no Chûkoku mo sezu, 'aseru na, Nonki ni nare' to yû koto wo kurikaeshite itta. Kono Hito tachi no Zento ni wa kitto Jisatsu shitaku naru Jiki ga kuru to omotta kara da. Minoru kun wa 2,30 sen, Shimizu wa 1 yen 80 sen shika motte inakatta.
    Shimizu kun to Yo to wa nan no Kwankei mo nai. Futari isshio ni de wa kongo Minoru kun wo sukû toki komaru kamo shirenu. Shikashi Yo wa sono Shôjiki rashii Kao no Kokoro-bosoge na Hyôjô wo mite wa kono mama wakare saseru ni wa shinobinakatta.
    "Yado-ya no hô wa dô shite arun desu? Itsu demo derare masuka?
    "Derare masu. Yûbe haratte shimattan desu...... Kyô wa zehi dô ka suru tsumori dattan desu."
    Sore jâ to-ni-kaku dokka Geshuku wo sagasanakute wa naran.
    10 ji han goro Yo wa futari wo tsurete dekaketa. Soshite hôbô sagashita ue de, 弓町ニノ八 豊島館 to yû Geshuku wo mitsuke, 6 jô hitoma ni futari, 8 yen 50 sen zutsu no Yakusoku wo kime, Tetsuke to shite Yo wa ichi-en dake O-kami ni watashita.
    Sore kara Rei no Tenpura-ya e itte 3 nin de Meshi wo kui, Yo wa Sha wo yasumu koto ni shite, Shimizu wo Yado e Nimotsu wo tori ni yari, Yo wa Minoru kun wo tsurete Shimbashi no Station made, soko ni azukete aru to yû Nimotsu wo uketori ni itta.Futari ga hiki-kaeshite kita toki wa Shimizu wa mô kite ita. Yo wa 3 ji goro made soko de iro-iro Hanashi wo shite kaette kita. Yo no Saifu wa Kara ni natta.

    Kyô Yo ga Minoru kun kara kikasareta Shibutami no Hanashi wa yo ni totte wa tae-gataki made iro-iro no Kioku wo yobi-okosaseru mono de atta. Shôgakkô de wa Wakui Kôchô to Kanaya no Nobu-ko san to no aida ni Myô na Kwankei ga deki, Shokuin-shitsu de Yakimochi-kenkwa wo shita koto mo aru to yû. Soshite Kyonen yamete shimatta Nobu-ko san wa, dô yara Hara ga ôkiku natte ite, chikagoro wa sukoshi Ki ga Hen da to yû Uwasa mo aru to ka! Numada Seimin shi wa Kataku-shinnyû-zai de Shokei wo uke, 3 ka nen no Kei no Shi'kô Yûyo wo eteru to yû. Sono hoka no Hito tachi no Uwasa, hitotsu to shite Yo no Kokoro wo tokimekasenu mono wa nakatta――Waga 'Hotaru no Onna.' Iso-ko mo ima wa Isha no Otôto no Tsuma ni natte Hirosaki ni iru to yû!
    Yo no Shôsetsu 鳥影 wa mata angwai Kokyô no Hito ni shirarete iru to no koto da.
    Yoru, Yo wa Iwamoto no Chichi ni Tegami wo kakô to shita. Naze ka kakenakatta. Sapporo no Chie-ko san ni kakô to shita ga sore mo kakezu, Mado wo hiraku to yawaraka na Yo-kaze ga nesshita Hô wo nadete, Kâb ni kishiru Densha no Hibiki no Soko kara Furusato no koto ga Me ni ukanda.


3TH(sic) MONDAY

    Sha ni wa Byôki-todoke wo yatte, ichi-nichi nete kurashita. O-take no Yatsu Baka ni Gyakutai suru. Kyô wa ichi-nichi Hi mo motte konai. Sumi-chan ga choi-choi kite wa Tsumi no nai koto wo shabette iku. Sore wo Raku-chan no Yatsu-me, usankusa-sô na Me wo shite mite iku.
    Iya na Hi! Zetsubô shita hito no Yô ni, tsukare-kitta Hito no yô ni, omoi Atama wo Makura ni nosete......Kyaku wa mina kotowaraseta.


4TH TUESDAY

    Kyô mo yasumu. Kyô wa ichi-nichi Pen wo nigitte ita. "鎖門一日" wo kaite yame, "追想" wo kaite yame, "Omoshiroi Otoko?" wo kaite yame, "少年時の追憶" wo kaite yameta. Sore dake Yo no Atama ga Dôyô shite ita. Tsui ni Yo wa Pen wo nage-dashita. Soshite hayaku neta. Nemurenakatta no wa Muron de aru.
    Yûgata de watta, Namiki ga kitakke. Sore kara Iwamoto to Shimizu ga cho'to kite itta. Yappari Yo wa Nonki na koto bakari narabete yatta.


5TH WEDNESDAY

    Kyô mo yasumu.
    Kaite, kaite, tôtô matome kanete, "手を見つつ" to yû Sanbun wo hitotsu kaki-ageta no ga mô Yû-gata: Mebashi no Reisô-sha e okuru.


6TH THURSDAY

    Kyô mo yasumu. Kinô Kyô sekkaku no Yasukuni-jinja no Saiten wo himosugara no Ame.
    Asa, Iwamoto, Shimizu no Futari ni okosareta. Nani to naku shizunda Kao wo shite iru.
    "Kono mama de wa dô mo naranai! Dô ka shinakereba naranu!" to Yo wa kangaeta. "Sô da! Ato isshûkan gurai Sha wo yasumu koto ni shite, ôi ni kakô. Sore ni wa koko de waikenai. Iwamoto no Yado no Akima ni itte, Asa'kkara Ban made kakô. Yoru ni kaette kite neyô."
    Soshite Kane ga dekita-ra 3 nin de toriaezu Jisui shiyô to kangaeta. Kindaichi kun ni mo hanashite Dôi wo eta.
    Genkôshi to Ink wo motte sassoku Yumichô e itta. Shikashi kono Hi wa nan ni mo kakezu, futari kara iro-iro no Hanashi wo kiita. Kikeba kiku hodo kaaiku natta. Futari wa hitotsu Futon ni ne, nibu-shin no Ramp(sic) wo tomoshite sono Yukusue wo katari-atte iru no da.
    Shimizu Mohachi to yû no mo Shôjiki na, soshite naka-naka shikkari shita tokoro no aru Otoko da. 2 nen bakari Chôsen Keijô no Ani no Mise ni itte ita no wo, zehi Benkyô shiyô to omotte nigete kita no da to yû.
    Yo wa Atama no Soko ni uzumaite iru iro-iro no Kangae-goto wo Muri ni osaetsukete oite, futari no Hanashi wo kiita. Shimizu wa Chôsen no Hanashi wo suru. Yo wa itsu-shika sore wo Nesshin ni natte kiite, "Ryohi ga ikura kakaru?" nado to tôte mite ita. Aware!
    Yoru 8ji goro kaette ki, chotto Kindaichi kun no Heya de hanashite kaette neta.
    Kyô kakô to omoi-tatta no wa, Yo ga genzai ni oite tori-uru tada hitotsu no Michi da. Sô kangaeru to kanashiku natta. Kongetsu no Gekkyû wa Zenshaku shite aru. Doko kara mo Kane no hairi-yô ga nai. Soshite Rai-getsu wa Kazoku ga kuru......Yo wa ima Soko ni iru――Soko! Koko de shinu ka koko kara agatte iku ka. Futatsu ni hitotsu da. Soshite Yo wa kono futari no Seinen wo sukuwaneba naranu!


7TH FRYDAY

    7 ji goro ni okoshite moratte, 9 ji ni wa Yumichô e itta. Soshite Hon wo Furuhonya e azukete 80 sen wo e, 5 bu-shin no Ranp(sic) to Shôgi to Tabako wo katta. Kikyô-ya no Musume!
    Hanashi bakari sakae, sore ni Tenki ga yoku nai node, Fude wa susumanakatta. Sore demo "宿屋" wo 10 mai bakari, sore kara "一握の砂" to yû no wo Betsu ni kaki-dashita. To ni kaku Kyô wa Muda ni wa sugosanakatta. Yoru 9 ji goro kaetta. Kikyô-ya no Musume!
    Iwamoto no Chichi kara Tegami. Nanibun tanomu to no koto. Sore kara Kushiro no Tsubo Jin-ko no natsukashii Tegami, Hirayama Yoshi-ko no Hagaki, Satô Isen no Hagaki nado ga kite ita.


8TH SATURDAY――13TH THURSDAY

    Kono muika-kan Yo wa nani wo shita ka? Kono koto wa tsui ni ikura asette mo Genzai wo buchi-kowasu koto no dekinu wo Shômei shita ni suginu.
    Yumi-chô ni itta no wa, zengo 3 ka de aru. Futari no Shônen wo aite ni shinagara kaite wa mita ga, omô yô ni Pen ga hakadoranu. 10 ka kara wa iku no wo yamete Uchi de kaita. "一握の砂" wa yamete shimatte "札幌" to yû no wo kaki-dashita ga 50 mai bakari de mada matomaranu.
    Sha no hô wa Byôki no koto ni shite yasunde iru. Katô-shi kara deru yô ni itte kita no ni mo Hara ga warui to yû Tegami wo yatta. Soshite, Kinô, Yumi-chô e iku to Futari wa Geshuku-ryô no Saisoku ni yowatte iru no de, Iwamoto wo Tsukai ni yatte Katô-shi ni Satô-shi kara 5 yen karite morai, sore wo Geshuku e haratte yatta. Kitahara kara okurareta "Jashûmon" mo utte shimatta.
    Shimizu ni wa iro-iro Kugen shite Yo kara sono Ani naru Hito ni Chokusetsu Tegami wo yari, Honnin ni wa nan de mo kamawazu Kuchi wo motomeru Kesshin wo saseta. Iwamoto no hô wa Hiraide no Rusu-taku e Shosei ni Shûsen-kata wo tanonde oita.
    Kagiri naki Zetsubô no Yami ga toki-doki Yo no Me wo kuraku shita. Shinô to yû Kangae dake wa narubeku yosetsukenu yô ni shita. Aru ban, dô sureba ii no ka, kyû ni Me no mae ga Makkura ni natta. Sha ni deta tokoro de Shiyô ga naku, Sha wo yasunde ita tokoro de dô mo naranu. Yo wa Kindaichi kun kara karite kiteru Kamisori de Mune ni Kizu wo tsuke, sore wo Kôjitsu ni Sha wo 1 ka-getsu mo yasunde, soshite Jibun no issai wo yoku kangae yô to omotta. Soshite Hidari no Chi no shita wo kirô to omotta ga, itakute kirenu: kasuka na Kizu ga futatsu ka mitsu tsuita. Kindaichi kun wa odoroite Kamisori wo tori age, Muri-yari ni Yo wo hippatte, Inbanesu wo Shichi ni ire, Rei no Tenpura-ya ni itta. Nonda. Waratta. Soshite 12 ji goro ni kaette kita ga, Atama wa omokatta. Akari wo keshi sae sureba Me no mae ni osoroshii mono ga iru yô na Ki ga shita.
    Haha kara itamashii Kana no Tegami ga mata kita. Sengetsu okutte yatta 1 yen no Rei ga itte aru. Kyô-ko ni Natsu-bôshi wo kabusetai kara Tsugô ga yokattara Kane wo okutte kure to itte kita.
    Kono mama Tôkyô wo nige-dasô to omotta koto moatta. Inaka e itte yôsan de mo yari tai to omotta koto mo atta.
    Tsuyu chikai Inki na Ame ga furi-tsuzuita. Ki no kusaru iku-nichi wo, Yo wa tsui ni 1 pen mo Dakkô shinakatta.
    Yûjin ni wa tare ni mo awanakatta. Yo wa mô Karera ni Yô ga nai: Karera mo mata Yo no Tanka-gô no Uta wo yonde okotteru darô.
    Shibutami no koto ga toki-doki kangaerareta.
    Anna ni hidoku Kokoro wo ugokashita kuse ni, mada Imôto ni Hagaki mo yatte nai. Iwamoto no Chichi ni wa Hagaki dake. Uchi ni mo Yaranu. Soshite Tachibana Chie-ko san ni mo yaranu. Yarô to omotta ga nani mo kaku koto ga nakatta!
    Kon'ya wa Kindaichi kun no Heya e itte Onna no Hanashi ga deta. Atama ga chitte ite nani mo kakenu. Kaette kite Yano Ryûkei no "不必要" wo yonde neru koto ni shita. 時善と純善! sono Junzen naru mono mo Shikkyô nan da?
    Yo wa ima Yo no Kokoro ni nan no Jishin naku, nan no Mokuteki mo naku, Asa kara Ban made Dôyô to Fuan ni ottaterarete iru koto wo shitte iru. Nan no kimatta tokoro ga nai. Kono saki dô naru no ka?
    Atehamaranu, Muyô na Kagi! Sore da! Doko e motte itte mo yo no umaku atehamaru Ana ga mitsukaranai!
    Tabako ni ueta.


14TH FRYDAY

    Ame.
    Satô Isen ni okosareta. 5 nin no Kazoku wo motte Shoku wo sagashite iru.
    Satô ga kaette Shimuzu ga kita. Nihonbashi no aru Sakaya no Tokui-mawari ni Kuchi ga aru to yû.
    Iwamoto wo yonde Rireki-sho wo kaite kuru yô ni itte yatta.
    Iya na Tenki da ga, nani to naku Kokoro ga ochi-tsuite kita. Sha wo yasunde iru Kutsû mo narete shimatte sahodo de nai. Sono kawari Atama ga Sanman ni natte nani mo kakanakatta. Nan da ka Iya ni Heiki ni natte shimatta.
    Ni-do bakari Kuchi no naka kara obitadashiku Chi ga deta. Jochû wa Nobose no sei darô to itta.
    Yoru wa 'Jion-Kanazukai Benran' wo utsushita.
    Shibutani mura wo kakô to omotta ga, dô shite mo Kyô ga wakanakatta kara sono mama nete shimatta.


15TH SATURDAY

    9 ji ni Iwamoto ni okosareta. Iwamoto no Chichi kara 'yoroshiku tanomu' to yû Tegami ga kita.
    Kyô no Shinbun wa Hasegawa Tatsunosuke shi (Futabatei Shimei) ga Kichô no To, Fune no naka de shinda to no Hô wo tsutae, kisotte sono Toku wo tatae, kono nani to naku erai Hito wo oshinde iru.
    Kono goro wa daibu samukatta ga Kyô kara Yôki ga naotta. Ame mo hareta.
    Nani mo sezu ni ichi-nichi wo sugoshita. Yurumi hateta Ki no Soko kara, tôkarazu osoroshii koto wo kekkô seneba naranu yô na Kanji ga chira-chira ukande kuru.
    Yoru, futari no Shônenga yatte kita. Shimizu wa Kyôbashi no Sakaya e Detchi ni sumi-komu koto ni kimatte, Asu no uchi ni yuku to yû.
    Futari ga kaette, Ma mo naku, itsu ka kitakke Obara Toshimaro to yû Usagi mitaina Me wo shita Bunshi ga kite, Unzari shite shimatte Roku ni Henji mo shinai de iru to, nan no kan no to tsumaranau koto wo shaberi-chirashite 10 ji han goro ni kaette itta.
    "Mono wa kangae-yô hitotsu desu." to sono Otoko ga itta: "Hito wa 50 nen nari 60 nen nari no Jumyô wo ichi-nichi, ichi-nichi herashite iku yô ni omotte masu ga, Boku wa ichi-nichi ichi-nichi atarashii Hi wo tashite iku no ga Life da to omotte masu kara, chi' to mo kurushiku mo nan to mo omowan desu."
    "Tsumari, Anata no yô na Hito ga Kôfuku nan desu. Anata no yô ni, sô gomakashite Anshin shite ikeru Hito ga......"
    11 ji goro, Kindaichi kun no Heya ni itte Futabatei-shi no Shi ni tsuite katatta. Tomo wa Futabatei-shi gaBungaku wo kirai――Bunshi to iwareru koto wo kirai datta to yû no ga kaisare nai to yû. Aware naru kono Tomo ni wa Jinsei no fukai Dôkei to Kutsû to wa wakaranai no da. Yo wa Kokoro ni taerarenu Sabishisa wo idaite kono Heya ni kaetta. Tsui ni, Hito wa sono Zentai wo shirareru koto wa katai. Yô-suru ni Hito to Hito to on Kôsai wa Uwabe bakari da.
    Tagai ni shiri-tsukushite iru to omô Tomo no, tsui ni Waga Soko no Nayami to Kurushimi to wo shiri-enai no da to shitta toki no yarusenasa! Betsu-betsu da, hitori-hitori da! Sô omotte Yo wa 11-gataki Kanashimi wo oboeta. Yo wa Futabatei-shi no shinu toki no Kokoro wo Sôzô suru koto ga dekiru.


16TH SUNDAY

    Osoku okita. Ame ga furikomete sekkaku no Nichiyô ga dainashi.
    Kindaichi kun no Heya e itte, tôtô, toki-fuseta. Tomo wo shitte Futabatei wo Ryôkai seshimeta. Kyô mo Iwaomto ga kita.
    Sha ni mo ikazu, nani mo shinai. Tabako ga nakatta. Tsukunen to shite mata Inaka-yuki no koto wo kangaeta. Kuni no Shinbun wo dashite mite iro-iro to Chihô-shinbun no Henshû no koto wo kangaeta.
    Yûgata Kindaichi kun ni Genzai no Yo no Kokoro wo katatta. "Yo wa Tokwai Seikwatsu ni tekishi nai." to yû koto da. Yo wa majime ni Inaka-yuki no koto wo katatta.
    Tomo wa naite kureta.
    Inaka! Inaka! Yo no Hone wo uzumu beki tokoro wa soko da. Ore wa Tokwai no hagesii Seikwatsu ni tekishite inai. Isshô wo Bungaku ni! Sore wa dekinu. Yatte dekinu koto de wa nai ga, Yô suru ni Bungakusha no Seikwatsu nado wa Kûkyo na mono ni suginu.


17TH MONDAY

    Gozen wa susamashii bakari Kaze ga fuita. Yasumu. Gogo, Iwamoto ga chyotto kite itta.
    Kyô no Shimbun wa Futabatei shi ga Nihilist de atta koto ya, aru Mibun iyashii Onna ni kwanshita Itsuwa wo kakagete ita.
    Hiru-meshi made Tabako wo Gaman shite ita ga, tôtô, "Akogare" to hoka 2, 3 zatsu wo motte Ikubundô e yuki, 15 sen ni utta. "Kore wa ikura nan da?" to Yo wa "Akogare" wo sashita.
    "5 sen――desu ne." to Haibyô-kwanja rashii Hon'ya no Aruji ga itta. Ha, ha, ha......
    Kyô mo Yo wa Inaka no koto wo kangaeta. Soshite sore dake no koto ni Hi wo okutta. "Ika ni shite Inaka no Shimbun wo Keiei subeki ka? mata, Henshû subeki ka?" Sore da!
    Kono Kyôgû ni iru kono Yo ga ichi-nichi nani mo sezu ni, konna Koto wo kangaete kurashita to yû koto wa!
    Yoru Makura no ue de 'Shinshôsetsu' wo yonde sukoshiku omoi-ataru koto ga atta. "Ntional life!" sore da.


31TH(sic) MONDAY

    Ni-shûkan no aida, hotondo nasu koto mo naku sugoshita. Sha wo yasunde ita.
    Shimizu no Ani kara Tegami wa kita ga, Kane wa okutte konai.
    Iwamoto no Chichi kara ni-sando Tegami.
    Kurshiro naru Koyakko kara mo Tegami gakita.
    Yo wa doko e mo――Hakodate e mo――Tegami wo dasanakatta.
    "Iwate Nippô" e, "Ijaku Tûshin" 5 kwai hodo kaite yatta. Sore wa Morioka-jin no Nemuri wo samasu no ga Mokuteki de atta. Hankyô wa arawareta. "Nippô" wa "Morioka Hanei-Saku" wo dashi hajimeta.
    Shikei wo matsu yô na Kimochi! Sô Yo wa itta. Soshite mainichi Doitsu-go wo yatta. Betsu ni, iro-iro Kuhû shite, Chihô-shimbun no Hinagata wo tsukutte mita. Jissai, Chihô no Shimbun e yuku no ga ichiban ii yô ni omowareta. Muron sono tame ni wa Bungaku wo sutete shimau no da.
    Ichido, Yôgwaka no Yamamoto Knae kun ga kita. Shashin-Tsûshinsha no Hanashi.

    Misoka wa kita.
    Damatte Uchi ni mo orarenu no de, Gozen ni dekakete Hori――tada ichi-mai no――wo Shichi ni irete 70 sen wo koshirae, Gogo, nan no Ate mo naku Ueno kara Tabata made Kisha ni notta. Tada Kisha ni nori takatta no da. Tabata de Hatake no naka no shiranu Michi wo urotsuite Tsuchi no ka wo akazu sutta.
    Kaette kite Yado e Môshiwake.
    Kono Yo Kindaichi kun no Ko no aware ni mietattara nakatta.


JUNE

TOKYO    

1TH(sic) TUESDAY

    Gogo, Iwamoto ni Tegami wo motashite yatte, Sha kara Kongetsu-bun 25 yen wo Maegari shita. Tadashi 5 yen wa Satô shi ni haratta no de Tedori 20 yen.
    Iwamoto no Yado ni itte, Shimizu to futari bun Sengetsu no Geshukuryô (6 yen dake irete atta.) 13 yen bakari harai, sore kara futari de Asakusa ni iki, Kwatsudô Shashin wo mite kara Seiyô-ryôri wo kutta. Soshite Kozukai 1 yen kurete Iwamoto ni wakareta.
    Sore kara, nan to ka yû wakai kodomorashii Onna to neta. Sono tsugi ni wa Itsuka itte neta Koyakko ni nita Onna――Hana――no toko e yuki, Hen na Uchi e Obâsan to itta. Obâsan wa mô 69 da to ka itta. Yagate Hana ga kita. Neta. Naze ka kono Onna to neru to tanoshii.
    10 ji goro kaetta. Zasshi wo 5, 6 satsu katte kita. Nokoru tokoro 40 sen.


HATSUKA KAN

(TOKOYA NO NIKAI NI UTSURU NO KI.)    

HONGÔ YUMI-CHÔ 2 CHÔME
18 BANCHI ARAI (KINOTOKO) KATA

    Kami ga bô-bô to shite, mabara na Hige mo nagaku nari, Ware-nagara iya ni naru hodo yatsureta. Jochû wa Haibyô-yami no yô da to itta. Gezai wo mochii sugite yowatta Karada wo 10 ka no Asa made 3 jô han ni yokotaete ita. Kakô to yû Ki wa dô shite mo okoranakatta. Ga, Kindaichi kun to Giron shita no ga En ni natte, iro-iro Bungaku jô no Kangae wo matomeru koto ga dekita.
    Iwamoto ga kite Yo no Kôi wo kansha suru to itte naita.
    10 ka no Asa, Morioka kara dashita Miyazaki kun to Setsu-ko no Tegami wo Makura no ue de yonda. 7 ka ni Hakodate wo tatte, Haha wa Nohechi ni yori, Setsu-ko to Kyô-ko wa Tomo to tomo ni Morioka made kita to yû. Yo wa omotta: "Tsui ni!"
    Miyazaki kun kara okutte kita 15 yen de Hongô Yumi-chô 2 chôme 18 Banchi no Arai to yû Tokoya no 2 kai futama wo kari, Geshuku no hô wa, Kindaichi kun no Hoshô de 119 yen yo wo 10 yen zutsu no Geppu ni shite morai, 15 nichi ni tatte kuru yô ni Kazoku ni ii-okutta.
    15 nichi no Hi ni Gaiheikwan wo deta. Nimotsu dake wo karita Uchi ni oki, sono Yo wa Kindaichi kun no Heya ni tomete moratta. Iyô na Wakare no Kanji wa Hutari no Mune ni atta. Wakare!
    16 nichi no Asa, mada Hi no noboranu uchi ni Yo to Kindaichi kun to Iwamoto to 3 nin wa Ueno station no Platform ni atta. Kisha wa 1 jikan okurete tsuita. Tomo, Haha, Tsuma, Ko......Kuruma de atarashii Uchi ni tsuita.


1909

〔4月3日〕

    Kitahara-kun no Oba-san ga kita. Sosite kare no Sin-Sishû "Jashûmon" wo 1 satu moratta.
    Densha-tin ga nainode Sha wo yasumu. Yoru 2 ji made "Jashûmon" wo yonda. Utukusii, sosite Tokushoku no aru Hon da. Kitahara wa kôfuku-na Hito da!
    Boku mo nandaka Si wo kakitai-yô na Kokoromoti ni natte neta.

 

〔4月4日〕

    Hareta, Haru-rasii Hi datta. Gogo, Hisasi-buri ni Hakusan-goten ni Ôta-kun wo tazuneta. Sosite 1 yen karita. 2, 3 niti mae no koto, siti-hati-nin no Gwaka ya Sijin ga to-aru tokoro de nonda toki, Kurata-Hakuyô to iu Gwaka wa tô-tô siku-siku nakidasita sô da――4 ji-goro kara Asakusa e itte, Kwatsudô-shasin wo mi, kaeri ni Ueno e yotta-ga, Sakura wa usu-akaku Tubomi ga fukurande ita.
    Yoru, Yamasiro Seichû ga kita. Sukosi yopparatte ita yô datta. Boku wa Konya hajimete Tetu no yô na Kokoro wo motte Hito ni taisite mita. Yamasiro-kun wa situbô-sita yô na Kawo wo site, kaette itta.
    From Setsu-ko.

 

〔4月5日〕

    "Subaru" dai 4 gô ga kita. Mori-sensei no hajimete no Gendai-geki "Kamen" wo yonda.
    Yoru, hisasi-buri de Abe Getujô-kun ga tazunete kita. Sina e itte kita noda to itte ita. Ima wa Chûwô-daigaku e itteru toka. Ai-kawarazu Hora wo fuiteru omosiroi Otoko da.
    ......Mame-moyasi......Mawata――(Hatirô-gata―Tôdo―Wata―Sôda―Karusu―Tôkyô-futonyakumiai kara nen 300 man gwan (per 1 kan 17 sen) no Yakusoku. Kenri 6 man yen.―Neji-nuki―
    Abe's residence Awoyama harashuku, 214.

 

〔4月6日〕

    Kumori, Ame. Dan.
    Asa 9 ji-goro, Otake ga kite, chitto sita e kite kure to yû. Asa-ppara kara nan no koto da! Gesyuku no shujin kara no Danpan da. Kyô-jû ni Henji suru to itta.
    Kitahara-kun wo tazune-yô-ka to omotta ga, sonouti ni 12 ji tikaku natta-node, Gobusata no Owabi wo kanete, "Jashûmon" ni tuite no Tegami wo yatta. ―"Jashûmon" niwa mattaku atarasii futatu no Tokuchô ga aru: sono hitotu wa 'Jashûmon' to yû Kotoba no yûsuru rensô to itta yô na mon ode, mo-hitotu wa kono Sishû ni afurete iru atarasii Kankaku to Jôcho da. Sosite, Zensha wa Shijin Hakushû wo kaisuru ni mottomo hituyô na Tokushoku de, Kôsha wa Kongo no atarasii Si no Kiso to naru-beki mono da......
    Futtari hare tari suru Hi de atta. Sha de Kongetu no Kyûryô no uti kara 18 yen-dake Zenshaku sita, sosite Kaeri ni Asakusa e itte Kwatudô-shasin wo mi, Tôkaen wo Inu no gotoku urotuki-mawatta. Baka na!
    12 ji kaetta. sosite 10 yen dake Geshuku e yatta.
    To Mr. Kitahara.


1911

〔10月28日〕

    "Onna ni yomaseru Syûkan Sinbun wo dasitai!" kore ga watasi no kono-goro no Kûsô no Daimoku de aru.
    

 

〔10月29日〕

    Asa ni Mituko kara Tegami ga kita. Kimono wo okuranakatta nowa warui; sikasi Sikata ga nakatta noda. Huyukwai na Kimoti de Henzi wo kaita.
    Gogo, Maruya ga kite 2 zikan bakari mo iro-iro no Sekenbanasi wo sita. Hisasiburi no Raikyaku datta. Hutari no Kokoro wa, issô tikaduki-beki yô na Kikwai kara kaette hanareta. Atarazu-sawarazuno Hanasi no naka kara, 'Onna to yû Mono wa dosi-gatai mono da' to iû Kotoba ga Watasi no Kokoro ni nokotta.
    Mituko no Kyôsi, Toba Hukiko to iû Hito kara, nani ka Mimai no Sina wo okutta to iû teineina Tegami ga kita.

 

〔10月30日〕

    Asatte ga Oosôzi da to iû node, Kyô Gozen no uti ni Tatami wo Engawa ni motidasite, Hokori wo tataita. Tukarete Krada no hôbô ga itami, Gogo ni nattara 37o, 85 no Netu ga deta.
    Tukuwe no Iti wo, Syôzi no mae kara Nisi gawa no Komado no Tokoro e utusita. Nani to naku, Heya ga atarasiku, hiroku natta yô de, Kimoti ga yoi. Oosôdi! Oosôdi!―konna Koto wo omotta; watasi mo watasi zisin no Oosôdi wo yaranakereba naranai noda ga......
    Hi ga kurete Ma mo naku, Kôtôsihan no Tyôtin Gyôretu wo miru to itte Setuko ga Haha to Kyôko wo turete dete itta ga, Ame ga hutte kita node Kasa wo motte Mukai ni itta.

 

〔10月31日〕

    Konaida-dyû, Mune no itakatta nowa naotte simatta ga, Seki dake wa yappari deru; mottomo Mune ni hibiku koto wa sahodo de naku natta.
    Sabisii Misoka! Setuko wa Byôin ni itta kaeri ni Kasa wo Sitiya ni oite 50 sen karite kita. Watasi wa Kyô wa nani to naku Huyukwai de atta.
    Setuko mo Mune ga warui (sore ga kono 2, 3 niti yokatta) to itte nete ita. Yoru, mada 9 zi ni natta ka, naranu ka no Koro ni mô netesimatta.


入力記録

定本:『啄木・ローマ字日記』(桑原武夫編訳、岩波文庫、1977)
入力者:尾崎達治
ファイル作成:尾崎達治
校正者
入力開始:2001年6月13日
入力終了:2008年1月29日
公開開始:2001年6月21日